hey everyone!
i'm so sorry i haven't updated in like forever! and i know that i promised i would update more often after i got in, but a lot of shit has been going on..
well actually not a lot, but yeah..
first: i got kicked out of my house.. my mom and i just arent ppl who can live under the same roof, we just go at each other whenever possible.. and we got in a huge fight at the beginning of the month and she finally kicked me out. so i've been staying at friends houses and since i don't have my own computer its kind of hard to always be on it.. sorry. i still haven't found a place to live, but she told me that i can leave all my shit at the house until i do.. but i'm getting kind of worried that i'm going to go back one day to get a change of clothes or something, and she's going to have sold all my shit! i just need to find a place fast..
second: i did get into Alpha Omega, for those of u who haven't realized.. and i'm SO happy
i love all my sorority sisters.. and all the other sisters from the other greek organizations in lowell.. a year ago i never would have thought that i would have joined a sorority, but i absolutely love it and can't believe i never did it sooner..
third: marshall broke up with me
2 weeks ago, and it was fucking out of the blue! we had gone to get dinner together since i hadn't seen him in a few days, and on the way back to lowell he was like " hey, since i'm not going to see u for a few days, i wanted to talk to u about us.." and proceeded to break my heart. and he acted surprised when i got upset and started crying.. he was like "i didn't know u would take it like this, i never meant to hurt you".. i mean, what the fuck did he expect i would do? we'd been going out for over a year, i've told him EVERYTHING, we lived together, we'd been thru SO MUCH! i seriously thought i was in love with him.. and then he just turns around and says that he doesn't want a full-time girlfriend becuz it's too hard for him to be worrying about that and school and his band and living at the frat house.. i was really upset the other week.. for 4 days straight i binge drank until i blacked out and didn't remember anything that i had done.. ppl had to tell me the next day what i had done the night before.. haha.. and then that saturday i took mushrooms with a bunch of friends, and i am SO happy that i did becuz i had an awesome trip and it totally helped with my mood.. so i'm not sad anymore, well just a little when i still see all his shit at my house, but now i'm just annoyed and alittle pissed off that he treated me like that for so long. i realized that he had been acting differently for a little while now that i look back on it, and i just didn't seem to be getting it, so it's kind of my fault i guess.. but oh well, fuck him. he said he still wants to be friends and he doesn't want me to feel like i can't go over the house or anything, so i'm just going to make sure that he sees what he's missing out on 
fourth: i'm not sure if i'm going to be going to the school in manchester in the fall.. i really like the school and everything, but i am SO FUCKING sick of school! i hate school in general, always have.. and i really want my tattoo license, so i think that i'm just going to go to ITT Tech or Middlesex CC for their graphic design programs, and then next january go to michigan and get my tattooing certificate
doing one of those 9-18 month programs sounds a lot better to me than years of schooling that im never going to use.. i have such bad ADD that i can't stay in the same school for long! i mean i started in umass, then went to NHIA, and now i;m switching again! i'm hopeless i know, haha..
well, i have some more shit to do, and i need to get out of my mom's house before she comes home on her luch break and finds me
i'll try to update as soon as i can..
and i'm sorry about the non-commenting, but i just don't have the time right now, i gotta go.. i'll try to designate a time just to commmenting to all of u awesome ppl
xoxoxo
i'm so sorry i haven't updated in like forever! and i know that i promised i would update more often after i got in, but a lot of shit has been going on..
well actually not a lot, but yeah..
first: i got kicked out of my house.. my mom and i just arent ppl who can live under the same roof, we just go at each other whenever possible.. and we got in a huge fight at the beginning of the month and she finally kicked me out. so i've been staying at friends houses and since i don't have my own computer its kind of hard to always be on it.. sorry. i still haven't found a place to live, but she told me that i can leave all my shit at the house until i do.. but i'm getting kind of worried that i'm going to go back one day to get a change of clothes or something, and she's going to have sold all my shit! i just need to find a place fast..
second: i did get into Alpha Omega, for those of u who haven't realized.. and i'm SO happy
i love all my sorority sisters.. and all the other sisters from the other greek organizations in lowell.. a year ago i never would have thought that i would have joined a sorority, but i absolutely love it and can't believe i never did it sooner..
third: marshall broke up with me
2 weeks ago, and it was fucking out of the blue! we had gone to get dinner together since i hadn't seen him in a few days, and on the way back to lowell he was like " hey, since i'm not going to see u for a few days, i wanted to talk to u about us.." and proceeded to break my heart. and he acted surprised when i got upset and started crying.. he was like "i didn't know u would take it like this, i never meant to hurt you".. i mean, what the fuck did he expect i would do? we'd been going out for over a year, i've told him EVERYTHING, we lived together, we'd been thru SO MUCH! i seriously thought i was in love with him.. and then he just turns around and says that he doesn't want a full-time girlfriend becuz it's too hard for him to be worrying about that and school and his band and living at the frat house.. i was really upset the other week.. for 4 days straight i binge drank until i blacked out and didn't remember anything that i had done.. ppl had to tell me the next day what i had done the night before.. haha.. and then that saturday i took mushrooms with a bunch of friends, and i am SO happy that i did becuz i had an awesome trip and it totally helped with my mood.. so i'm not sad anymore, well just a little when i still see all his shit at my house, but now i'm just annoyed and alittle pissed off that he treated me like that for so long. i realized that he had been acting differently for a little while now that i look back on it, and i just didn't seem to be getting it, so it's kind of my fault i guess.. but oh well, fuck him. he said he still wants to be friends and he doesn't want me to feel like i can't go over the house or anything, so i'm just going to make sure that he sees what he's missing out on
fourth: i'm not sure if i'm going to be going to the school in manchester in the fall.. i really like the school and everything, but i am SO FUCKING sick of school! i hate school in general, always have.. and i really want my tattoo license, so i think that i'm just going to go to ITT Tech or Middlesex CC for their graphic design programs, and then next january go to michigan and get my tattooing certificate
doing one of those 9-18 month programs sounds a lot better to me than years of schooling that im never going to use.. i have such bad ADD that i can't stay in the same school for long! i mean i started in umass, then went to NHIA, and now i;m switching again! i'm hopeless i know, haha..
well, i have some more shit to do, and i need to get out of my mom's house before she comes home on her luch break and finds me
i'll try to update as soon as i can..
and i'm sorry about the non-commenting, but i just don't have the time right now, i gotta go.. i'll try to designate a time just to commmenting to all of u awesome ppl
xoxoxo
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Congrats on the sorority, by the way!