I really shouldn't be updating right now, but i don't feel like doing shit. i just spent 2 hours writing my application essay for the nhia. i finished it a couple days ago, but when i typed it out, i decided to change a few things, and then a few more, and then more.. so it took 2 hours. i finally think i have it how i want it tho.
so i should really be adding more to my portfolio for tomorrow, but i don't want to just draw up some easy basic sketches or anything. i like doing pieces that mean something, or explain something, or leave you thinking, you know? but that gets me in trouble becuz then i procrastinate and only have 8 pieces when i'm supposed to have 10-20
i talked to the guy i'm having my interview with already, and he told me that if i don't have a completed portfolio it's ok.. he just wants to see my style, and if i have potential, and the passion.. or just trying to slide by.
so those are couple things that are/did stress me out. another is that i don't have my teacher recommendations. i'm really hoping that Liam (the guy i have the interview with) will give me a break since the highschool was closed today and i wasn't able to talk to the 2 teachers i left messages for. if not, buh-bye spring semester! my friend becca who i work with said that it may be better for me to just take 1 or 2 classes this semester and apply for the fall instead. it'd be less stressful, and i could build up my portfolio to the full potential i want and think it should be at. but since liam said there's a chance i can still start on monday, i figured i may as well try for it.. even tho i'm so fucking stressed!
another thing that bums me out is that i was supposed to get my wings filled in. i have wings tattoed on my back, and it's been almost two years since i got them, and i finally have enough cash set aside to get them filled in. but with the interview scheduled for tomorrow morning, i can't make it becuz i have to go to work right after that! but i rescheduled for sunday.. i have to earn my wings right! the only thing that sucks is that i have to work at 2 on sunday, and my appointment is at 12.. and it's probably going to take a couple hours, so i'm going to be late to work. but my manager that's working that day(chris) doesn't like me.. so i'm going to get bitched at. i told that to my manager brian tonight, and he agrees that getting my tattoo done is more important! besdides, i'd only be 30-60 minutes late, and there's 4-5 other ppl working that day. so he told me to talk to my manager kevin tomorrow and let him know, becuz kevin is the head guy and chris is just a key holder.. so if kevin knows about it, chris won't be able to get me in trouble. so hopefully that works out..
another stressor i have, i'm running out of pot and don't have more money for some. my tattoo is first priority, so everything else has been set aside.. but i only have 2 bowl packs left.. looks like i'm going to be smoking resin till i get paid next wed..
the other day, an ex wrote me an email. a "farwell" email. this is the guy i've known for 5 years, went out with him for 2 1/2 years, and dated him off and on through-out. i cut it off last year tho. but we had a fucked up relationship, and his dad hated me. his dad would tell him to not talk to me or see me, and he'd just stop talking to me all-together! it really fucked with my head. and he was always accusing me of cheating one him and lying to him, tho i never did. but he was always lying to me, and his excuse was that "he lied to me to get the truth".. whatever.. and his dad would ask to talk to me alone, and then bitch at me and tell me how bad i was for his son and how i was worthless and manipulative and disrespectful. he was director of the drum and bugle corp i was in, and once one of the staff members walked in on him yelling at me and telling me all that shit, and she actually tried to defend me. she obviously didn't want to lose her job tho, so she just brought me to the bathroom and stayed with me till i stopped crying. but his dad would always deny yelling at me and insulting me.. and obviously pete(my ex) believed him. not to mention that he cheated on me. so, he wrote me this "farwell" email becuz he enlisted in the army and is off to basic training, and wanted to say that he misses me and is sorry for everything and knows now that he fucked up and that his dad was an asshole.. but i could care less. i know he's not doing that to be sincere and apologize.. he's trying to get me to feel guilty about hating him and not talking to him for a year! i showed it to becca, and she knows him, and the first thing she said to me was "you're not falling for this shit are you?" she could see right thru his trick.. and i could too.. it's just funny how it's been over for a year, and he's STILL trying to get the last word in.. asshole..
another thing that's pissing me off is my mom.. she's driving me crazy! i remember why i moved out in the first place.. but then i think how i now have an extra $300 every month now that i don't have to pay rent.. and i'm able to tolerate her for alittle while..
well i really need to get to bed.. i have some more shit to do first.. and then i have my interview tomorrow morning! wish me luck.. i'm going to need it!
Tasha
so i should really be adding more to my portfolio for tomorrow, but i don't want to just draw up some easy basic sketches or anything. i like doing pieces that mean something, or explain something, or leave you thinking, you know? but that gets me in trouble becuz then i procrastinate and only have 8 pieces when i'm supposed to have 10-20
i talked to the guy i'm having my interview with already, and he told me that if i don't have a completed portfolio it's ok.. he just wants to see my style, and if i have potential, and the passion.. or just trying to slide by.
so those are couple things that are/did stress me out. another is that i don't have my teacher recommendations. i'm really hoping that Liam (the guy i have the interview with) will give me a break since the highschool was closed today and i wasn't able to talk to the 2 teachers i left messages for. if not, buh-bye spring semester! my friend becca who i work with said that it may be better for me to just take 1 or 2 classes this semester and apply for the fall instead. it'd be less stressful, and i could build up my portfolio to the full potential i want and think it should be at. but since liam said there's a chance i can still start on monday, i figured i may as well try for it.. even tho i'm so fucking stressed!
another thing that bums me out is that i was supposed to get my wings filled in. i have wings tattoed on my back, and it's been almost two years since i got them, and i finally have enough cash set aside to get them filled in. but with the interview scheduled for tomorrow morning, i can't make it becuz i have to go to work right after that! but i rescheduled for sunday.. i have to earn my wings right! the only thing that sucks is that i have to work at 2 on sunday, and my appointment is at 12.. and it's probably going to take a couple hours, so i'm going to be late to work. but my manager that's working that day(chris) doesn't like me.. so i'm going to get bitched at. i told that to my manager brian tonight, and he agrees that getting my tattoo done is more important! besdides, i'd only be 30-60 minutes late, and there's 4-5 other ppl working that day. so he told me to talk to my manager kevin tomorrow and let him know, becuz kevin is the head guy and chris is just a key holder.. so if kevin knows about it, chris won't be able to get me in trouble. so hopefully that works out..
another stressor i have, i'm running out of pot and don't have more money for some. my tattoo is first priority, so everything else has been set aside.. but i only have 2 bowl packs left.. looks like i'm going to be smoking resin till i get paid next wed..
the other day, an ex wrote me an email. a "farwell" email. this is the guy i've known for 5 years, went out with him for 2 1/2 years, and dated him off and on through-out. i cut it off last year tho. but we had a fucked up relationship, and his dad hated me. his dad would tell him to not talk to me or see me, and he'd just stop talking to me all-together! it really fucked with my head. and he was always accusing me of cheating one him and lying to him, tho i never did. but he was always lying to me, and his excuse was that "he lied to me to get the truth".. whatever.. and his dad would ask to talk to me alone, and then bitch at me and tell me how bad i was for his son and how i was worthless and manipulative and disrespectful. he was director of the drum and bugle corp i was in, and once one of the staff members walked in on him yelling at me and telling me all that shit, and she actually tried to defend me. she obviously didn't want to lose her job tho, so she just brought me to the bathroom and stayed with me till i stopped crying. but his dad would always deny yelling at me and insulting me.. and obviously pete(my ex) believed him. not to mention that he cheated on me. so, he wrote me this "farwell" email becuz he enlisted in the army and is off to basic training, and wanted to say that he misses me and is sorry for everything and knows now that he fucked up and that his dad was an asshole.. but i could care less. i know he's not doing that to be sincere and apologize.. he's trying to get me to feel guilty about hating him and not talking to him for a year! i showed it to becca, and she knows him, and the first thing she said to me was "you're not falling for this shit are you?" she could see right thru his trick.. and i could too.. it's just funny how it's been over for a year, and he's STILL trying to get the last word in.. asshole..
another thing that's pissing me off is my mom.. she's driving me crazy! i remember why i moved out in the first place.. but then i think how i now have an extra $300 every month now that i don't have to pay rent.. and i'm able to tolerate her for alittle while..
well i really need to get to bed.. i have some more shit to do first.. and then i have my interview tomorrow morning! wish me luck.. i'm going to need it!
TashaVIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
wugglyump:
your profile picture if very pretty
wingnut80:
I hope that the interview went well. Liam Sullivan is an awesome guy. I had a printmaking class with him at NHIA a couple of years ago.