OMG, am i actually updating!
I should be finishing my paper for my developemental disabilities class on prader-willi syndrome that was due 2 weeks ago, and the presentation that was due a week ago.. and the ink drawing for my class that i skipped tonight,, but i'm not. i hate how much i procrastinate.. i was doing so good in my classes and now i'm in jeaopardy of failing one class.. would be two, but i dropped one. my other two classes are going pretty well.. i should have around an a-b in them.
so, i still havent been to any bars since i turned 21.. this is going on 2 weeks now.. i know i'm pathetic! i still havent gotten my license renewed either.. sshhh, dont tell
i have no motivation lately.. to do anything, work, school, life in general! i'm hoping that as the holiday gets closer my mood and motivation will be better.
one reason i think is that 2 of my best friends have moved far away, and i feel kind of abandoned. they were my best friends from highschool, who i confided so many things in and could talk to about anything and who i had been through really hard times with.. but sort of lost touch over the past year. and in the past 2 months i found out 1 moved to new york with her family and the other moved to alaska! and i know i'll get to see them when they come back to visit every now and then.. and i can call them if i ever need to, but they're not just 20 minutes away anymore.. i cant just drive over and be able to sit with them and smoke a bowl or two with them anymore.. i feel like a couple pieces of me have been ripped away, or like an armor or shield has been taken from me and i'm exposed to all these negative things and feelings.. i know that once classes are over it'll lift a lot of my stress and anxiety, but it still sucks feeling like this..
on a happier note, i'm getting the ipod i want for x-mas
and maybe even synth-dreads..
well i should really try finishing that paper so that i can hopefully pass the class and get out of college as soon as possible..
The Esoteric are playing in Wakefield,MA on January 18th.. everyone should go, they're an awesome band and a great group of guys..
HAPPY HOLIDAYS to everyone in SG Land..
Tasha
I should be finishing my paper for my developemental disabilities class on prader-willi syndrome that was due 2 weeks ago, and the presentation that was due a week ago.. and the ink drawing for my class that i skipped tonight,, but i'm not. i hate how much i procrastinate.. i was doing so good in my classes and now i'm in jeaopardy of failing one class.. would be two, but i dropped one. my other two classes are going pretty well.. i should have around an a-b in them.
so, i still havent been to any bars since i turned 21.. this is going on 2 weeks now.. i know i'm pathetic! i still havent gotten my license renewed either.. sshhh, dont tell
i have no motivation lately.. to do anything, work, school, life in general! i'm hoping that as the holiday gets closer my mood and motivation will be better.
one reason i think is that 2 of my best friends have moved far away, and i feel kind of abandoned. they were my best friends from highschool, who i confided so many things in and could talk to about anything and who i had been through really hard times with.. but sort of lost touch over the past year. and in the past 2 months i found out 1 moved to new york with her family and the other moved to alaska! and i know i'll get to see them when they come back to visit every now and then.. and i can call them if i ever need to, but they're not just 20 minutes away anymore.. i cant just drive over and be able to sit with them and smoke a bowl or two with them anymore.. i feel like a couple pieces of me have been ripped away, or like an armor or shield has been taken from me and i'm exposed to all these negative things and feelings.. i know that once classes are over it'll lift a lot of my stress and anxiety, but it still sucks feeling like this..
on a happier note, i'm getting the ipod i want for x-mas
and maybe even synth-dreads..
well i should really try finishing that paper so that i can hopefully pass the class and get out of college as soon as possible..
The Esoteric are playing in Wakefield,MA on January 18th.. everyone should go, they're an awesome band and a great group of guys..
HAPPY HOLIDAYS to everyone in SG Land..
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spooki:
craziness! the esoteric plays around here a lot too. classes... ::sigh:: im so glad theyre over with. i had a lot of trouble concentrating last semester too. i had a close friend pass away. 
way to shake everything up. blah. but my grades were actually quite a bit better than i had imagined they would be. howd yours turn out?
way to shake everything up. blah. but my grades were actually quite a bit better than i had imagined they would be. howd yours turn out?
spooki:
happy new year 