As usual...its all shite.
I tried to go Straight Edge...managed about a week and a half before i got too stressed and had a pint (well...2) last night. I bet there are loads of you reading this smirking and thinking 'knew she would never do it'...fuck you. To all the people who acually supported me and backed me up, i'm sorry i have let you down.
Things are shit in Marie world again...been blown out, again. At least, we were together last week and this week after a 'tiff' he is refusing to speak to me. Close friends know who i mean. I think have finally snapped with this one..fuck him too.
I'm not depressed today, just frigging angry. Nothing seems to go my way...is it because i am a bad person? Do i deserve all this shit? If so, fine. But why do people think they have the right to fuck with my feelings? I have been messed around so much by the male of the species in the last few months, i'm sick of it. I may have issues and problems, but why is it impossible for me to find someone decent that i have something in common with who i actually fancy? The only guy i think is cute atm prob wouldn't even see me like that if i gave him a frigging lap dance...god why do i bother?
I'm so sorry i haven't been on much. You have all been wonderful, leaving me comments to cheer me up etc...and i have ignored everyone. To be fair my computer is broke again - i'm doing this from my sisters - but tbh i just haven't got the energy to respond to anyone. I love you all though, just bear with me while i try and make something of my life.
I tried to go Straight Edge...managed about a week and a half before i got too stressed and had a pint (well...2) last night. I bet there are loads of you reading this smirking and thinking 'knew she would never do it'...fuck you. To all the people who acually supported me and backed me up, i'm sorry i have let you down.
Things are shit in Marie world again...been blown out, again. At least, we were together last week and this week after a 'tiff' he is refusing to speak to me. Close friends know who i mean. I think have finally snapped with this one..fuck him too.
I'm not depressed today, just frigging angry. Nothing seems to go my way...is it because i am a bad person? Do i deserve all this shit? If so, fine. But why do people think they have the right to fuck with my feelings? I have been messed around so much by the male of the species in the last few months, i'm sick of it. I may have issues and problems, but why is it impossible for me to find someone decent that i have something in common with who i actually fancy? The only guy i think is cute atm prob wouldn't even see me like that if i gave him a frigging lap dance...god why do i bother?
I'm so sorry i haven't been on much. You have all been wonderful, leaving me comments to cheer me up etc...and i have ignored everyone. To be fair my computer is broke again - i'm doing this from my sisters - but tbh i just haven't got the energy to respond to anyone. I love you all though, just bear with me while i try and make something of my life.
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