andshewas

i am thinking about perhaps getting rid of my paid account here.

i don't use it nearly enough to make it worthwhile.

hrmm...

goodness gracious.

as of this evening i have a girlfriend.

and i'm leaving tomorrow to go home, approximately halfway across the country from her.

we agreed this would be an open relationship, but i'm sure everyone knows how good it feels to have someone there for something other than your sex.

do you people even realize how good peaches is?

go download some of her music before i beat you all up.

her music makes me want to dance and fuck. preferably at the same time.

heh. i don't think i fucked up the second one as badly as i thought. going to another party at grrl house this weekend.

perhaps more drinking and kissing? hopefully with the boy previously mentioned.

i hate that i can't write his name because he knows everyone on the goddamn internet!

pretty sure i did not do my best job woo-ing the boy.

woo-ed a different one and fucked it up.

i should not do this anymore. if only i didn't care about having someone to love/love me, i could easily become a recluse.

it snowed here today. beautiful things, i need to not let myself forget them.

I Want It All (by the Dance Hall Crashers)

Like to believe there's something more out there
Like to believe that I'm not the only one
Who looks around and feels overcome
So much to do, too many choices
Which one will be the road that becomes my own
Should I act or should I take it slow


Cause when the nagging feeling takes hold...
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haven't written in a while. went to a party last night, got drunk, kissed a lot of people. dragged out of the party by my not so drunk friends before i had the chance to get any phone numbers.

current task: woo a tall cute hardcore boy that lives 5 hours south and have him come up for a sleepover

doing quite well so far....
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here's the deal kids.

i have aggressions.

i want to fuck someone really hard.

leave marks.

bite. scratch. etc.

but then i want to be cuddled afterwards.

i really need friends in this city. true friends that will take time to go out to coffee and discuss my problems with me.

so i have the sweetest boyfriend alive. it is amazing. i don't know if i'm able to even express what i'm feeling.

want to know something terrible?

i don't have money for my books. i'll have money for them next week, but not now. that means my first homework assignments will be late.

know anyone that will loan me money/give me money in exchange for services?

poop.

you know... if you live anywhere near chicago, you should attempt to be my friend. its really fun. i make you brownies and we watch digital cable. occasionally we'll go out at night for a bit of blood sucking.