androob

I've been having some really awful dreams lately, alot having to do with my ex, with family, a lot also with me hurting myself pretty badly. physically and emotionally. i woke up crying on my birthday it was that bad. _Good Apollo was next to me. she didnt hear me. it's rare i cry. my sub concious always seems to get me.

my birthday consisted of

-all you can eat sushi.
-lifestory monologue, waterbodies at L3.
-hot morning sex.
-some friends visiting and making things a bit awkward.
-wrapping myself in sarah.

i just want my bad thoughts and dreams to subside. medication and therapy might be an answer i need to look into. i want her out of my head. not my life. but out of my head would be nice.
my girlfriend is beautiful. smart. compassionate. quirky. i love her. i just feel like a piece of shit.

listening to a lot of shit lately. music helps. tea helps. sarah.
i just want to want to sleep easy.
-andrew