Once again I am terribly poor and spending recklessly. I wish I could stop. Just ignore all my friends and just be a hermit until I pay off my card. But that won't happen. And the boy in my room? He's still here. I know. I shouldn't have let him back in, but I did. I was too eager to sample what he had to...
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Fuck. He's in this room. He left days ago, but he's still here. He wants to fuck me, but he doesn't want to love me, and I feel sick. Does anyone believe in love anymore?
c0ngo:
I do but I don't think it believes in me.
cdt21:
yup, it's one of the few things that sustains along with hope (and faith if you're into that) but it is elusive and mightily challenged along the way.
In the meantime use a lot of room freshener and don't bring him back. Change the decor.
Hope all goes well...
In the meantime use a lot of room freshener and don't bring him back. Change the decor.
Hope all goes well...
Negative thought for the day: after reading through the entire thread of Pearl's "American Voter" set (I missed it when it first came out), I am thoroughly disappointed with the rampant irrationality that plagues our world. I think so many of us Americans, and much of the rest of the world for that matter, follow our political beliefs blindly. How many of us really KNOW...
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thepumkinking:
hi hehe
thepumkinking:
aw thank you so much 
I haven't made love with anyone like I used to with the boy I fell in love with in high school. I know that boy, now a man, would laugh if he knew this. I was not good enough for him, but for me, he was overwhelming and wonderful. So much so, that I was sometimes afraid of the all-consuming love I felt for him....
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jtiberius:
Although it is cold comfort right now, Vonbaxter is right. Your highschool boyfriend took you to a certain level and no one else has approached or exceeded that level just yet. Until someone is able to do that for you, highschool boyfriend will be the end all and be all. And when someone does surpass the heights to which he brought you---well, then highschool boyfriend will be positioned squarely in your rearview mirror.
And trust me...someone will do that for you, although you probably feel that you've waited long enough already. To quote the sage of many a depressed youth in 1984, "you say it's gonna happen now, but whatever do you mean? You see I've already waited to long, and all my hope is gone."
But, alas, never fear, it will come...
Okay, I can now offically surrender my SG membership for violating the "no quoting of Morrissey" mandate.
And trust me...someone will do that for you, although you probably feel that you've waited long enough already. To quote the sage of many a depressed youth in 1984, "you say it's gonna happen now, but whatever do you mean? You see I've already waited to long, and all my hope is gone."
But, alas, never fear, it will come...
Okay, I can now offically surrender my SG membership for violating the "no quoting of Morrissey" mandate.
eternal_sigh:
i have the same feelings about a girl i used to eat out. but she's a total twat now so i'm trying to forget about that shit.
good luck
good luck
I put up more pics 
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desert_monkey:
You're so freakin yummy!!! Howz things? I miss ya! Hopefully things are settling for me, a little bit. I'll be out there next week. Gotta help sis move. Wanna move heavy things with me? I'll definitely come see ya, if you're available. I'll call ya in the next couple days. I just got back in town - again. Love the new pix! and yes! you're hot!!! Peace, Love and Nibbles!
cdt21:
Great pics, you have *hawtness* 
I will never find it if I'm looking for it. I hear the words. I sing them, I understand them, but they are so hard to absorb into the parts of my consciousness that I have no control over. Do you ever do things and wonder just why the hell you're doing them? It's almost like your own hand reaching out to stab you, and...
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cdt21:
You're definitely worth a hug ,,,,
*hug*
*hug*
my brother's new nickname for me is commie. he doesn't know what the hell he's talking about, but i'd still rather be a communist than a bush supporter. 
pensquare:
Fuckin' A.
Keep the faith, sister.
Keep the faith, sister.
My financial situation is pretty ghastly. I'll spare the details, but it sucks. And I feel like the shit is going to hit the fan rathr soon. How awful that Christmas is coming up. That isn't going to help. I think I'm shooting my credit to hell. I'd really like to interview for new jobs, but I'm feeling like it will be rather difficult while...
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nickfear:
I know this sounds like happy horse shit but got to believe in yourself or no one else will. Good luck hope you get something new soon.
vonbaxter:
Hope you have a Great Thanksgiving!! If you want to knock off a bank sometime so we can both pay off our bills . . . hehehe ;-)
i have made many mistakes. and i am not trying to incur anybody's pity. but i would just like to say: sometimes death doesn't seem like the worst thing that could happen. and that makes me feel better.
desert_monkey:
Sorry you're havin rough times. I had to leave LA early. I'm on a plane to Dallas tomorrow to go work an event on Thanksgiving! Hang in there, K?
So you let him back in eh?