Sometimes apologizing only makes things worse. I have to learn to be strong in my decisions and make no apologies for who I am and what I want. This guy was so gorgeous. I am still thinking about him. He knocked K. and A. right out of my system. Too bad he's taken...damn, but he does make for a hot fantasy. 
If not, there are plenty out there for the picking, you just got to go out and find them! And be friends with the hottie...
keep your friends close and your enemies closer.... prospects as well.
~ the angel*