andrewisawesome

Yeah well, ive been stuck in this relationship for quite a while now with nothing happening, we had no physical relationship, she was a really sweet girl, but it wasent what i needed you know, she lived in jhb and it was too far, it just wasent wat i needed...

I had been thinking abt breaking up with her alot but then it was my birthday and i just couldnt do it, then it was her birthday, and as much of an asshole as i am, i just couldnt do it just b4 her birthday.. turns out i kissed another girl the day before her birthday, and i think i might really be an asshole, cause i didnt feel bad about it, the only thing i felt bad about was being to drunk to not remember it fully (seriously booze is not a fucking excuse for ANYTHING it only makes it easier to do what you wanted to do), geezuz i am a wanker some days, so its best i broke up with her i guess.

So anyway, it is 5 days past her birthday and i spoke to her on the phone and i told her, she was crying and shit and compared me to my other friends, and said if they can do it why cant i, i said cause im not them. She said it felt like she cared more for me then i did for her, it was fucking horrible, but i had to do it. I didnt cry or anything, guess i just am kinda numb to emotions at the moment.. maybe since nicole i guess

But yeah, so im single again, and i dont think i want a relationship so soon again, its weird for me i guess to not be in one, but i think ill have to really consider the next one before jumping in like an idiot.