andow

Ok, so I gotta vent, because one of my longest and closest friends is starting to become successful and it seems to be going to his head and now he is talking down to me because I am not up on world events or whatever. It just seems all the people that were once my friends are no longer that, my friends. Even though that is just one example over the last 2 yrs I have lost nearly all of my friends, from either distance or whatever. It was hard enough taking 25 yrs making these few friends Im losing, I mean what the fuck?

I keep saying that Im going to further my passions and make them my life, and I keep failing to do that. So since Im basically being left with nothing here where I am now, fuck this, it seems as good a time as any to cut the shit and do something.

I just think, fuck life, life only takes and never seems to give.