andow

so been a while since i wrote, but i think i should do this blog/journal thingy more often, might be good release. i finally got over a 2 week long sunburn, that was rough lemme tell ya. but truthfully my biggest problem also happens to be my desire, training for MMA isnt going as well as i would have hoped. i mean my dad all of a sudden decided to be a real boss so now i only get paid for when i work, which isnt that big of a deal but i am worried about how to pay for my equipment and training. the biggest part of my frustrations is that i am trying so damn hard to change my life around and succeed and be who i want to be but my work never seems to move forward its always stuck where i am or reverting back. and another problem that i am dealing with is i cant take being alone and single anymore, i just cant and i have tried to make a move, but to be honest i dont know many women and i dont really go out too often nor am i much of a clubber or bar hopper. so if anyone on here lives near me and wants to give me a shot then that would be killer heh. hopefully things will start making there shift to going forward instead of pausing or regressing like i said before. who knows but im gunna keep trying, and i could use some help so any support yall could give would be nice, and the anyone near me that wants to give me a shot then lemme know heh heh.