Ever feel like no matter what you do, the goal your working towards just will never happen? I'm starting to feel that way. So I've turned to sex. Of course my hubby's deployed, so I have a LOT of sex with myself. I just spent nearly a hundred dollars on toys. Hey, at least I get cool stuff 
Next month it will have been a year since my set was shot. Still not live. I'm so sick of hearing "have patience". Hubby's gone to the desert "be patient". Your command sponsorship is in the works "be patient". Your set was accepted "be patient". School is expensive "be patient". I don't think I've ever hated a word as much as I hate that one right this moment. I guess thats why I've appeased myself with toys and self pleasure, no patience needed there, INSTANT (or close to) gratification.
On a happier note, I'm helping my grandparents remodel the bathroom downstairs, and the whole upstairs if theres enough time. It's fun, when I actually buckle down and do it... like I'm supposed to be doing right now. I've decided to stop going out with friends and drinking and not coming home for days at a time. Might help with the whole getting it done. Plus drinking is boring without the man to keep me entertained after I'm buzzed. Heehee, he's good at that. FUCK, I miss him *sobbing* Ok, I'm better now. I think I'm just having a bad day, he went on a LONG convoy today, so I wont get to talk to him for awhile.
At least it's not like WW2 and 'Nam, where you wouldn't hear from them months to.. *shudder* years at a time. I don't know how it was done back in the day. That generation is a was a whole different breed! Like my grandparents, the first 5 years of their marriage my grandfather was gone for 3 years.
I'm going to get my tat finished very soon, kinda dreading it. I don't mind pain.. it's just BIG. I love it afterwards, I just want to kill my brother-in-law the whole time he's tattooing me Haha, he says he gets that a lot. I'm just a pussy 
I love tattoos. I can't wait for the man to get more, they look delicious on him
His birthday is next week. I'm getting him an amazon gift card. Haha, I know, lame. The guy buys everything he wants tho! Maybe some naughty public pictures would make up for the lame b day present. And I know I will get the chance to make it up to him at home. YAY!
Well, I get to go get high off paint fumes now, what did YOU do today?
Next month it will have been a year since my set was shot. Still not live. I'm so sick of hearing "have patience". Hubby's gone to the desert "be patient". Your command sponsorship is in the works "be patient". Your set was accepted "be patient". School is expensive "be patient". I don't think I've ever hated a word as much as I hate that one right this moment. I guess thats why I've appeased myself with toys and self pleasure, no patience needed there, INSTANT (or close to) gratification.
On a happier note, I'm helping my grandparents remodel the bathroom downstairs, and the whole upstairs if theres enough time. It's fun, when I actually buckle down and do it... like I'm supposed to be doing right now. I've decided to stop going out with friends and drinking and not coming home for days at a time. Might help with the whole getting it done. Plus drinking is boring without the man to keep me entertained after I'm buzzed. Heehee, he's good at that. FUCK, I miss him *sobbing* Ok, I'm better now. I think I'm just having a bad day, he went on a LONG convoy today, so I wont get to talk to him for awhile.
At least it's not like WW2 and 'Nam, where you wouldn't hear from them months to.. *shudder* years at a time. I don't know how it was done back in the day. That generation is a was a whole different breed! Like my grandparents, the first 5 years of their marriage my grandfather was gone for 3 years.
I'm going to get my tat finished very soon, kinda dreading it. I don't mind pain.. it's just BIG. I love it afterwards, I just want to kill my brother-in-law the whole time he's tattooing me
Haha, he says he gets that a lot. I'm just a pussy I love tattoos. I can't wait for the man to get more, they look delicious on him
His birthday is next week. I'm getting him an amazon gift card. Haha, I know, lame. The guy buys everything he wants tho! Maybe some naughty public pictures would make up for the lame b day present. And I know I will get the chance to make it up to him at home. YAY!
Well, I get to go get high off paint fumes now, what did YOU do today?
For someone with alot of shit going on, you sound so positive. I'm impressed. And you're right about the men & women of WW2. We whine when the cable TV goes out. You husband though, sounds like one of the WW2 group. All the best to him.
Good luck remodeling.
Oh yea, what did I do today? Lay in bed shivering and puking. Pussy!