andi

Funny how when a person won't say what they did or didnt do until you have evidence and call them out on it.

I am not going to get hurt anymore. I am not going to put myself in any situation now where I can get emotionally hurt. I'm so tired of it. It happens to me no matter what I seem to do. Well not anymore. I am just not going to open up to anyone, not going to let anyone get close enough to hurt me. I'm done.

This whole experience has left me so depressed and with no self esteem whatsoever. I can't believe it. I mean I was lying down on my couch yesterday, sick and crying , and just thinking to myself. I wish I could just go. Just be gone from this world.

I thought my hurting was over months ago. But obviously not.

I didn't deserve this. I didn't deserve any of this. But over and over again it kept happening.

You say you'll get better, you say you can do this. But why didn't you just be good from the start. Why...

You told me from the first incident that you would stop, you didn't. It happened again and again.
Wonderful...

Oh and please, like I told you before, it's not a good idea to use the same lines on one girl and then on the next girl. Word... for .... word..

It's time for you to grow up and be honest about what you have done. No more "I don't remember, I didn't remember bullshit" That won't work on the next girl.



Maybe its just karma from my past catching up to me. Who knows. I certainly don't and am uncertain of just about everything anyone has ever said to me now.
Forgive me if I am depressed and slightly suicidal (don't worry i won't do anything to myself except drink alcohol and smoke cigarettes) and I am not all cheerful to talk to you. or even. if i don't talk to you at all. I am going through some rough times right now and I need to get everything straight in my head.

On that note.. I am going to finish this blog.

have fun, be safe and most importantly be honest.