why is it that ever letter that you wrote me i have kept, i find them around my room and pick them up and put them right back down in the same place. a few days ago i even found the birthday card that i had meticulously picked out for you, the birthday card i never sent you...with the birthday promise you never kept...

i moved into my dorm today and i'll start actually sleeping there saturday and i'm more excited about this than i can remember being about anything! it's going to be such an amazing experience.
i feel so blessed for everything with unc working out so amazingly well. i guess having one more angel watching over me helps.i long for the change, for the new space with the new people to give me a fresh start. put this past year behind me and let me move on with my life.
i'm ready to find someone who can give me as much as i give them. who can make me laugh as often as i make them laugh...i could go on, but i'll let ani say it for me...


i want somebody who can hold my interest
hold it and never let it go
someone who can flatten me with a kiss
that hits like a fist
or a sentence, that stops me like a brick wall
if you hear me talking
listen to what i'm not saying
if you hear me playing guitar
listen to what i'm not playing
and don't ask me to put words
to all the silences i wrote
don't ask me to put words
to all the spaces between notes
in fact if you have to ask, forget it
do and you'll regret it
i'm tired of being the interesting one
i'm tired of having fun for two
just lay yourself on the line
and i might lay myself down by you
but don't sit behind your eyes
and wait for me to surprise you
i want somebody who can make me
scream until it's funny
give me a run for my money
i want someone who can
twist me up in knots
tell me, for the woman who has everything
what have you got?
i want someone who's not afraid of me
or anyone else
in other words i want someone
who's not afraid of themself

do you think i'm asking too much?