anaxarete

whats this?


why oh why am i so serious????
ok
talk about stupid, i am frozen cause i cant think of anything to write or i think of things but they seem too serious or too private.
too private? for my anonymous sg friends???? man, do i overthink.
i've lost some weight recently and i love being tiny (and i'm not really that tiny, but my husband weighs almost 100lbs more than me so that helps me feel tiny), it makes me feel more feminine and i feel weird about that.
my earliest memories of sexual fantasies were about being tiny. but like miniature, so i would fit in the palm of someones hand, ride their thumb like a horse.
i think my whole sexual self-image is based on powerlessness. being tiny or young or helpless. i have no judgement about the self-image but i think its starting to shift. partly its because i cant play lolita anymore and partly (and this is a big surprise for me) i'm finding that i dont want to.

meh
its all bullshit anyway
i took my state boards for nursing yesterday morning. dont know if i passed yet. eventually i will look for a job, but for now the whole family is enjoying a lovely vacation period.
monday is my sons first birthday
next week we go to baton rouge
august we go to WI to see afterbirth's family in the great North Woods

oh, and that image above.....

it was my wings