anathemairemain

yeah, i forgot about the blog thing. i'm sure all two of my friends are tired of seeing the same one all the time.
ha.

so, today ended up being hell. the ex came over. wanted to see the dog. she was being all nice and shit. trying to hug me as i just pushed her off. in my eyes (finally) the point of no return has been reached. realization of the chances of getting back together have materialized in my mind. she comes along after a week of no contact. out of nowhere. i was doing well with my 12 step program and she just pushed me down. i don't fucking want this anymore. i've tried so hard to make her hate me, and she keeps fucking coming back.

i almost want to go back to iraq where i don't have to worry about the bullshit drama of everyday american life

thanks for letting me be the downer of the day. i'm selfish though. if i feel shitty, it helps to have someone else feel shitty with me.