anarcha

i definately have a tendency to want guys i can't have, and it fuckin sucks. i hate being sexually attracted to guys. oh well, maybe i do that so i stay in the safe warm blanket of a beautiful long term relationship....it's for the better i guess....

but boy could i use a makeout buddy

in other news i'm contemplating theories of modernity and postmodernity and capitalism and culture and identity and its hurting my brain.

can't stop thinking
can't stop smoking
can't sleep
miss b.