anarcha

oh god, just when things are starting to look up... devastating things happen... blaine, my on and off bf of about 6 years has officially and completely abandoned ship. i don't want to be serious with him right now, i have interests in other people and he just can't deal with it. he can't handle the open relationship. this sux. it is really painful to know i've hurt him this much and losing my best friend of so long... i really thought we were gonna last forever sometimes. but i've felt this coming for a while and been in denial. i know its for the best though, we were really dependent on one another, like we can't live without each other. he described me as heroin when he was telling me it was over. sadness, but maybe there will be a silver lining somewhere.
happy fuckin valentines day.