analise

happy saturday afternoon.

sometimes it's good to vent, but, at the same time...after a rather heated "discussion" about all of this stuff, i have realized that i was being an asshole by posting what i did in my journal.

this probably isn't the place for it, know what i mean? i guess i just had a moment of frustration and, i didnt' want to call friends etc., since they know both of us. i just needed...to....vent.

what i wrote was inconsiderate. it's not like what i said isn't true...but, i didn't include a lot of stuff. granted, i didn't write everything down because i didn't wanna have the Epic journal entry (and also because those were the issues i was fixated on at the time i wrote...not all the other stuff). however, the stuff i left out alters how one could view the situation.

i still stand firm in my view that he needs to get a job etc., but he knows this. as for the online chatting shite, well....i had a moment there where i took some shit from the past and applied to the current context, which is never a good thing to do. in order to move forward, one must...not regress. and that's exactly what my brain was doing.

all in all, i feel better and we've talked about a lot of things over the last 24 hours. i also went out and had a good time and my head feels clearer. i'm ordering greasy-ass pizza and gonna take it easy today. from now on, i'll have to be more considerate when i write stuff on here, no matter how mad i am at the time. cuz the bottom line here is that i love this guy and i don't want to see this relationship go to shit because of these issues.

thanks so much for all the responses...i love the fact that i can get objective advice.

hope everyone had kick-ass friday night and is enjoying their saturday.