Yes. It's true. Love is a bitch and then you die. I mean really! Every time I get into a new relationship I'm like "wait... I've done this before" it's almost like the same story every time. And it usually ends the same.
So now I'm like. Why start anything? It's just going to end up the same. I could write a story right now about what it would be like... put it on paper... maybe after that I wouldn't have the need to actually go though the horrible motions of a relationship...
OH BUT A CRUSH. Crushes are horrible. You see the person and it's like "they are the one and only for me" AND yet it's always the same give it a month or two... sometimes even a few years.
Not to say that people can't find love. I know a few who have. I know more people who have settled down into UNHAPPY depressing relationship and are too scared to get out.
My crush right now seems so amazing, smart... like a dream. I'm sure the crush will be gone soon. And I'll be back to wishing I could date the people on TV. It's so primal. I want to find a man who can kill deer and feed my children (I don't have children, it's just a point).
So yeah. I want him to call. And I want him to not call... but more I want him to call, but I will be fine if he does not. And in a week I probably wont care...
Classic story. I'm scared every time I kiss someone. Do we have to have the same 'relationship' questions? It's the FREAKING same every time.
I'm so scared to go though that again. Too scared. And sick of it.
So now I'm like. Why start anything? It's just going to end up the same. I could write a story right now about what it would be like... put it on paper... maybe after that I wouldn't have the need to actually go though the horrible motions of a relationship...
OH BUT A CRUSH. Crushes are horrible. You see the person and it's like "they are the one and only for me" AND yet it's always the same give it a month or two... sometimes even a few years.
Not to say that people can't find love. I know a few who have. I know more people who have settled down into UNHAPPY depressing relationship and are too scared to get out.
My crush right now seems so amazing, smart... like a dream. I'm sure the crush will be gone soon. And I'll be back to wishing I could date the people on TV. It's so primal. I want to find a man who can kill deer and feed my children (I don't have children, it's just a point).
So yeah. I want him to call. And I want him to not call... but more I want him to call, but I will be fine if he does not. And in a week I probably wont care...
Classic story. I'm scared every time I kiss someone. Do we have to have the same 'relationship' questions? It's the FREAKING same every time.
I'm so scared to go though that again. Too scared. And sick of it.
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I don't HATE love... I'm a big fan of it... I think more people should find true love... but for me... I don't think I was made for it!! I'm just tired of being tired! One of my favorite sayings is: "Love is an illusion created by divorce lawyers!"
Stay true to yourself, and love who you are... I believe that is the key to happiness.... if someone to love comes along... then I get to share that journey.
I'm not unhappy... actually I'm very happy... and have taken the time to change some things in my life... so what I'm saying here is meant to be inspiring not discouraging.