amstar

well, i wasnt ready to have a relationship after being so freshly out of one. he lived here for 3 months and was always trying to push me for more than i was ready for. i kept telling him to wait. then, he slept with someone else AND started treated me pretty badly so i had to ask him to leave. it really wasn't easy.

but, honestly, i don't know if i ever would have wanted to commit to him because i am still pretty in love with my ex.

now, i feel alone and scared but strong.

i have regrets and resentments but no boy.