so yeah. its been almost 2 weeks since the accident.
god. wow time flys
im alive.
im well.
im livin in monterey/santa cruz areas.
its amazing here. the most beautiful place ever. i love it.
today was a skinny day.
eating not much, but healthy stuff.
walked around forever, because i got lost on the UCSC campus dorms.
and skinny stuff.
mmm
woohoo
life has been so blurry the last few years, so much has happened, and now im here, the last 2 weeks have flashed by me and i cant even tell its been so long. what is happening. is this a sign of aging? god. i dont want to be old. not yet. i hope i die before i hit midlife, or pre-midlife. im sure to be one of those people who breaks down and freaks out for a few months and then is perfectly normal.
ani difranco is in a few weeks. the 27th. arizona, here kristi and i come, and possibly carly block. i cant wait.
what can i wait for. even when it seems like it took forever for something to come, when it comes you cant beleive its there. never anticipate. will turn your hair grey. unless you like the silver touch. my mouth is all dry. since around noon or 1 its been like that, here and there it stopped. but god, i feel like a sponge and ive been peeing so fucking much, i think it goes directly into my bladder once i drink it. water, ive drank so much and its not really helping. i saw the sagittarius today. shes lovely. stoned as hell, slow, not talkative, but then again neither was i, but she was like that from the first moment i got there, then i smoked and joined her in that state of being. good stuff. then dinner. she doesnt let me pay, or even contribute, and today when she took my $10 she grumbled and looked unsettled, then she ended up giving me 5 bux back. she says im poor and dont eat much. it doesnt matter, i have money to go out to dinner. then i almost ran a stop sign but she let me know it was there. i told her to, i told her i didnt pay much attention to them. they are small, the roads are small, why are there stop signs in the middle of nowhere?
all these questions and no answers. someone answer me will you please?
confusing. since the girl and i didnt talk much it was uneasy. dinner i kinda talked a bit more, but what do you say? she makes me nervous, and unable to speek and then when stoned that makes the task about 100 times more difficult. but then she says to call her and that she wants to hang out again soon, before i leave and to tell her when im leaving. hmm. that should be good.
i dont think she likes that im not to opinionated when it comes to eating, or going places. if i realyl dont like it i will let you know. on other things i have my own opinion and unless brought up i usually dont share.
me not talkative. god how did that ever happen. im not a blabber mouth, though im on a roll here, but this is my journal, but i am just able to converse with people, most of the time. its those damn people who i fancy that make me choke, sometime in more than one way.
i think i hear monica's car outside. i guess she is home thats nice i dont like being alone all the time, but i bet she will go to bed, since she goes to bed so early.
its thursday night, always my equal to a friday and im sitting here typing away. maybe thats good. my thoughts, i havent been able to really write them down, and paper and pen writing gets way to tiring, specially if you are lazy like me. walking up the stairs to go to bed wears me out. god i sound like an old woman. so to continue on that note, my back hurts and my ass hurts. prolly from driving and just sitting here. someone come rub my back. thats what i need.
hmm for easter someone should buy me a massage. or just fucking give me one. hmm easter. my friend monica, her mom gave me an easter present. makeup type bags. they are way cute. i think they have cats on them and one is black.
today was good.
so so good.
seriously. i woke up at like 630ish and got up and watched some tv and then showered, got dolled up and then went to santa cruz.
and ya ya ya i went on with that.
monica is home now so i am going to stop this.
au revoir madmoiselle
god. wow time flys
im alive.
im well.
im livin in monterey/santa cruz areas.
its amazing here. the most beautiful place ever. i love it.
today was a skinny day.
eating not much, but healthy stuff.
walked around forever, because i got lost on the UCSC campus dorms.
and skinny stuff.
mmm
woohoo
life has been so blurry the last few years, so much has happened, and now im here, the last 2 weeks have flashed by me and i cant even tell its been so long. what is happening. is this a sign of aging? god. i dont want to be old. not yet. i hope i die before i hit midlife, or pre-midlife. im sure to be one of those people who breaks down and freaks out for a few months and then is perfectly normal.
ani difranco is in a few weeks. the 27th. arizona, here kristi and i come, and possibly carly block. i cant wait.
what can i wait for. even when it seems like it took forever for something to come, when it comes you cant beleive its there. never anticipate. will turn your hair grey. unless you like the silver touch. my mouth is all dry. since around noon or 1 its been like that, here and there it stopped. but god, i feel like a sponge and ive been peeing so fucking much, i think it goes directly into my bladder once i drink it. water, ive drank so much and its not really helping. i saw the sagittarius today. shes lovely. stoned as hell, slow, not talkative, but then again neither was i, but she was like that from the first moment i got there, then i smoked and joined her in that state of being. good stuff. then dinner. she doesnt let me pay, or even contribute, and today when she took my $10 she grumbled and looked unsettled, then she ended up giving me 5 bux back. she says im poor and dont eat much. it doesnt matter, i have money to go out to dinner. then i almost ran a stop sign but she let me know it was there. i told her to, i told her i didnt pay much attention to them. they are small, the roads are small, why are there stop signs in the middle of nowhere?
all these questions and no answers. someone answer me will you please?
confusing. since the girl and i didnt talk much it was uneasy. dinner i kinda talked a bit more, but what do you say? she makes me nervous, and unable to speek and then when stoned that makes the task about 100 times more difficult. but then she says to call her and that she wants to hang out again soon, before i leave and to tell her when im leaving. hmm. that should be good.
i dont think she likes that im not to opinionated when it comes to eating, or going places. if i realyl dont like it i will let you know. on other things i have my own opinion and unless brought up i usually dont share.
me not talkative. god how did that ever happen. im not a blabber mouth, though im on a roll here, but this is my journal, but i am just able to converse with people, most of the time. its those damn people who i fancy that make me choke, sometime in more than one way.
i think i hear monica's car outside. i guess she is home thats nice i dont like being alone all the time, but i bet she will go to bed, since she goes to bed so early.
its thursday night, always my equal to a friday and im sitting here typing away. maybe thats good. my thoughts, i havent been able to really write them down, and paper and pen writing gets way to tiring, specially if you are lazy like me. walking up the stairs to go to bed wears me out. god i sound like an old woman. so to continue on that note, my back hurts and my ass hurts. prolly from driving and just sitting here. someone come rub my back. thats what i need.
hmm for easter someone should buy me a massage. or just fucking give me one. hmm easter. my friend monica, her mom gave me an easter present. makeup type bags. they are way cute. i think they have cats on them and one is black.
today was good.
so so good.
seriously. i woke up at like 630ish and got up and watched some tv and then showered, got dolled up and then went to santa cruz.
and ya ya ya i went on with that.
monica is home now so i am going to stop this.
au revoir madmoiselle
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jasechase:
I don't know anyone else that writes entries as long as mine. except you.! I'm jase by the way
gourmetpunk:
dollface is RIGHT