my arm hurts from playing guitar so much.
god and i havent even been playing much...
life is ick.
but whatever
you know you deal with it.
im not rreally bitching, but i guess i really am.
just you know how people say, if you are unhappy then change it, well what if you are completely unable to because someone is holding you back and you can exactly get rid of them or just leave them, because that IS the actual problem?
does that even make sense.
oh yes. and my life, is complete boredum let me tell you.
i do absolutely nothing all day long.
and its terrible.
im rotting away on diet pills, water, ciggarette and espresso.
i have most recently added weed to my diet as well. mostly as a sleep factor. because there is nothing else to do. might as well sleep my life away.
god i feel so lazy and i hate it. i want to be DOING SOMETHING. god damn.
hmmm
the espresso and caffein diet pill shits keep me going. better than doing speed i presume. i dont even know why i take the diet pills. i know im not fat. whatever. i have nothing better to do. at least a routine pill popping will give me something to look forward too.
and having NO money, but 30 dollars in a checking that i cant touch because i have to wait for my 29 dollar traffic school check clears. and then there is only 1/2 tank of gas in my car and it doesnt really matter. not like i have anywhere to go. or anyone to see.
i would like to see kelly. shes a sagitarius. soo soo typical too. god. anyhow i dont even know
whatever im alive and i have years to spend like this. only it might not be as easy in a few years. oh well.
god.
hmm it was raining and i got home and my kitten was sleeping in my car and i couldnt figure out how she got in there till is aw i left my window down which means my seat got soaked.
thank you very much.
xo
god and i havent even been playing much...
life is ick.
but whatever
you know you deal with it.
im not rreally bitching, but i guess i really am.
just you know how people say, if you are unhappy then change it, well what if you are completely unable to because someone is holding you back and you can exactly get rid of them or just leave them, because that IS the actual problem?
does that even make sense.
oh yes. and my life, is complete boredum let me tell you.
i do absolutely nothing all day long.
and its terrible.
im rotting away on diet pills, water, ciggarette and espresso.
i have most recently added weed to my diet as well. mostly as a sleep factor. because there is nothing else to do. might as well sleep my life away.
god i feel so lazy and i hate it. i want to be DOING SOMETHING. god damn.
hmmm
the espresso and caffein diet pill shits keep me going. better than doing speed i presume. i dont even know why i take the diet pills. i know im not fat. whatever. i have nothing better to do. at least a routine pill popping will give me something to look forward too.
and having NO money, but 30 dollars in a checking that i cant touch because i have to wait for my 29 dollar traffic school check clears. and then there is only 1/2 tank of gas in my car and it doesnt really matter. not like i have anywhere to go. or anyone to see.
i would like to see kelly. shes a sagitarius. soo soo typical too. god. anyhow i dont even know
whatever im alive and i have years to spend like this. only it might not be as easy in a few years. oh well.
god.
hmm it was raining and i got home and my kitten was sleeping in my car and i couldnt figure out how she got in there till is aw i left my window down which means my seat got soaked.
thank you very much.
xo
nenia:
i want to be doing something too...*sigh*
dilligan:
Sorry Amorette, don't worry things will get better, eventually. Besides, your a hot chick, you should be happy about that.