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so i was at work today. and when i was staying with my brother he said that he was puzzled and that he thought i had a very low opinion of myself.
this was true i told him. - i had lots of stuff going on in my life and i find it very difficult to regather my thoughts in any other way than this. i don't have any pride in myself. i don't mean i look like a slob, or sit infromt of the tv drinking beer. i mean i don't think i deserve anything. i hurt the person i loved most, and i can't seem to get over my stupidity. it's been two years now and i want to move on but i'm fucking terrified. terrified of being hurt, of being stuck in a situation cos i don't want to hurt them, and hurt them at the same time. i've never been very good at communicating, but i try.
i'd like to recover just a little bit.
so i'm writing to my two visitors who''ve never met me - as a catharsis. if you've got this far down the page then you must have an opinion formed - so please tell me to stop being such a wanker and go find someone and love them.

also you should watch finding neverland.
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