Pardon me for this blog. I just need to release...

I have no friends, I try to hang out with people, but it never works out. I guess people find me uninteresting...I don't know. It gets upsetting. I love having friends, but find it hard to make friends, and keep them.

I have been on edge lately because of my boyfriend constantly drinking when we are off, and yelling, causing fights, and listening to loud music.. in an apartment.

I feel like I am barely getting sleep, especially when he drinks, because he won't let me. I don't have the money to get a hotel.

I don't need anyone telling me what to do. I just need someone to be here for me. My mom was always here for me, but she passed away December 2009.

This blog was just to let it out.