I am the girl with the rain cloud on top of her.
well not literally.. I hope.
god is testing me. really!
this would even make emo kids CRY.
yesterday was an awful, yet, interesting night.
yes it was my 22th birthday- two of my best friends forgot.
yes I invited more than 40 people and bought booze and sushi for all of them,
20 came- all friends of my soon-to-be-ex-boyfriend- 4 were my friends.
one of my friends broke two glasses and a piece of my table
the other had sex with a friend and broke my bathroom. ALL of it, I didn't care to ask how they managed, but she ows me like 600 bucks.
I was feeling pretty darn down after all of this happened and tried to open to my soon-to-be-ex-boyfriend and he just felt I was trying to "blame him" for everything so ge just kind of ignored me.
then I thought "hey, booze is a good idea to kill my mind for a little while"
I drank and my soon-to-be-ex-boyfriend got the idea of having a "quickie" which I thought was just what I needed
remember american Pie? yes. that pretty much happened- before we even started. and it isn't the first time, yeah. most of the -few- times a month I ever got some. he just left, with my crying my eyes out in my bedroom. he never knows what to do and decides to fly the scene.
so I ended up cranky, mad, sexually frustrated, heart broken, minus one bathroom, minus glass and a bit of my table, and like a total social-dork.
funny enough, I am mystified at this point of how incredibly WRONG it was, I am not build for parties at all, it is actually the 3d time I try and it fails-
so I just bought a HUGE chocolate-cheese cake pie today, invited 3 friends- one didn't come- and we had a quiet time eating all the chocolate my body could handle.
now I have a lot of homework to do, a holiday week- next week- to spend by myself, (my roomie is going back to her town for the week, and she is getting a mac book pro- the one I want but can't afford.) I also have a relationship to end and I don't even know how to.
that is a HELL lot for just one week of my life!
anyone wants some chocolate?
I sure need some more!
I'll send some to someone that makes me laugh today, pleeease!
much love,
the girl with the rain could on top of her
xoxo!
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well not literally.. I hope.
god is testing me. really!
this would even make emo kids CRY.
yesterday was an awful, yet, interesting night.
yes it was my 22th birthday- two of my best friends forgot.
yes I invited more than 40 people and bought booze and sushi for all of them,
20 came- all friends of my soon-to-be-ex-boyfriend- 4 were my friends.
one of my friends broke two glasses and a piece of my table
the other had sex with a friend and broke my bathroom. ALL of it, I didn't care to ask how they managed, but she ows me like 600 bucks.
I was feeling pretty darn down after all of this happened and tried to open to my soon-to-be-ex-boyfriend and he just felt I was trying to "blame him" for everything so ge just kind of ignored me.
then I thought "hey, booze is a good idea to kill my mind for a little while"
I drank and my soon-to-be-ex-boyfriend got the idea of having a "quickie" which I thought was just what I needed
remember american Pie? yes. that pretty much happened- before we even started. and it isn't the first time, yeah. most of the -few- times a month I ever got some. he just left, with my crying my eyes out in my bedroom. he never knows what to do and decides to fly the scene.
so I ended up cranky, mad, sexually frustrated, heart broken, minus one bathroom, minus glass and a bit of my table, and like a total social-dork.
funny enough, I am mystified at this point of how incredibly WRONG it was, I am not build for parties at all, it is actually the 3d time I try and it fails-
so I just bought a HUGE chocolate-cheese cake pie today, invited 3 friends- one didn't come- and we had a quiet time eating all the chocolate my body could handle.
now I have a lot of homework to do, a holiday week- next week- to spend by myself, (my roomie is going back to her town for the week, and she is getting a mac book pro- the one I want but can't afford.) I also have a relationship to end and I don't even know how to.
that is a HELL lot for just one week of my life!
anyone wants some chocolate?
I sure need some more!
I'll send some to someone that makes me laugh today, pleeease!
much love,
the girl with the rain could on top of her
xoxo!
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Best thing you can do is say "fuck it" and go find yourself a man that isn't a three pump chump.