amerikanxdream

it's the road i'm on
it takes me the long way
around everything and everyone
i keep going, getting farther out
sometimes i can't find things
can't find words
can't find a way
there's often a feeling of great loss
it's just the road i'm on
sometimes i get locked out of myself
it keeps me away from you
even when i don't want to...
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Have you ever thought that the night could be hungry? Like it wants to eat you up? That's the feeling I get sometimes. I don't want to move because if I do that, I won't want to stop, and I'll get all wrapped up in some crazy shit that I won't be able to deal with. But the night it seems, is always there, waiting...
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Have you ever got the feeling that there's no time left? Or maybe that it's running out faster than you think, faster than you could possibly imagine? Do you ever get to feeling like that when you're lying in your lover's arms talking a bunch of shit that seems to make sense at the time, but not really, because you know that tomorrow you won't...
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This minute is hard, and it walks an unfit, honest mile alone. The truth laid out to wait, rest well and die cold. I know the method, lips drawn wide to turn and sway. To smile behind the biting tongue. Each of us danced well in lies. The hand the handle and the sword.

Lies there are those of us who will embrace lies and...
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i'm tired... and i found something to write about

i'm tired of people in general. all anyone seems to do anymore is complain, there's always something so wrong with their lives that they can't find motivation to get out of bed in the morning, what happened to our youthfulness, our courage and daring. i don't want to sit around and reflect on all the bullshit,...
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ho hum... ho hum.. WOAH! look at that.. it's a journal of some sort, or so it seems. Yes, i am a total retard, and i'm bored out of my skull so... i make my first entry as lame as possible, to see just how bad it can get. Played poker tonight, my favorite thing to do on sundays, nevermind the fact that it's the...
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