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I don't know what it is... but I'm in a really hostile mood right now.... I think its the lack of xanax, I'm going to have to get my hands on some alcohol.... I need something, as sad as it may seem, I need to be at least a bit sedated.

Yes. I'm an addict. I know. Do I care? Sometimes....

Yeah, yeah. I finally got laid (thank God!), but that only solves one or maybe just a couple of issues in my life right now. Sometimes, I feel as though I have no idea where the fuck I'm going. I don't know what to do. Who to be. How to interpret the world around me.

Wow.

This may be one of the "deepest" blogs I've written on this thing. I guess I just needed to get a couple of things off my chest. I think I should start writing again.

I actually have a story in mind. I have for a while. I should finally fucking write it, just write it all out, just like I used to, it's where I feel most at home...other than being on-the-air....or being musical.

I hate being deep...sometimes it just isn't worth it.

I want to get laid and get some booze soon.... hopefully, I will tomorrow

Till whenever,

jt.