ambition

Isn't going to see a shrink supposed to make you feel better? I feel like an emotional mud puddle right now. I hate dagging all of my skeletons out of the closet for an hour and then trying to get them all shoved back in so that I can function for the next week. Then just when I start to feel better it is time for another appointment. This shit better work.

My mom is supposed to be coming out to help out while I am on bedrest. This should be interesting. We haven't always gotten along so well. Things between us have been smooth for a while but I had to beg my stepdad to let her come out here. I am really sick of having to fight for her. As a mother I can't imagine making my son beg for my help. He just doesn't want to have to cook and clean for himself. The man is 45 years old and still insists on having his way, no matter what or who is at risk. I wish she would leave him. But I know that it will never happen. He knew when he married her that she had three children, I guess that since we were never around before (because she just left us one day and stayed gone and out of contact for 10 years) he didn't think that we would ever be around.

I really want everthing to just be normal, but since it can't be and never will be I would just settle for a really nice long sedation.