ambience

I'm kind of in a pensive mood at the moment. I've been thinking about life and how much of it is spent wasted on meaningless things. I'm not a religious person, but if I were I would imagine that when you stood in front of St. Peter for your judgment, that he wouldn't ,count your sins. No, instead a huge scale would sit before you. Sands of time would drop onto the left side of the scale for how much time you've wasted, and sands of value would begin to pour onto the other side. Time spent waiting at stoplights, left side. Time spent helping a sad friend forget about a boyfriend, right side. The people with too much sand on the left side have to go back to Earth until they get it right. The right side would get to spend eternity strumming harps with all the other productive people. That scenario is depressing in and of itself though. Because eventually the only people left on Earth are the slackers, while the best people in heaven are wasting their productivity.

The problem with knowing so much about Science, is that with every new thing I learn about the world and every evil I read about in humanity, the more I realize that oblivion is the only thing we have to look forward to. Oblivion is an excellent motivational concept for me. It drives me to leave behind as much of myself as possible before I go, so that in a way I'm still here. Never forgotten, and in a way it helps me get productivity points in pseudo-heaven. I think my brother has the best philosophy of all. Don't be afraid, any given day can be your last. It's how you live that is the most important thing you leave behind.