shit the bed! i'm alive!
i see a lot of people are no longer active on this here website. what the fuck? maybe its like one of my unactive spells and wont last long? hmmm
well, well... i havent been on here or written anything of importance in a long time.
well i'm in salem, oregon right now visiting family. old people go to bed way too early.
i found my car! it was in some motherfuckers drive way. did the cops do anything about it? fuck no they didnt. if you live in north idaho, go steal a car because you wont get in trouble for it. fucking pigs.
my sex life totally fucking sucks. i never get laid anymore but i dont feel like having casual sex because im sick of it. so i just fuck this one guy and our scheduals dont work out together that often.
im looking for a man but i know living in coeur d' alene im sure as fuck not going to find one i want. well i have but i cant have him. i want to get married soon and i want to have a kid within the next 2 years or so...but once i get married im not getting a divorce for anything so he's gotta be good. i guarantee its not going to fucking happen because lord fucking knows i can't have what i want.
ive leared to be very negative and stuff and expect the worse. im almost 100% right about it so im never too dissapointed. then when something good does happen im fucking stoked.
i need to get some new pictures up. my hair is different and my ears are gauged bigger than in any of the pics.
im finally going to finish high school. ugh. i really fucking hate that shit. its fucking stupid. oh well. i dont really want to be working at king pizza the rest of my fucking life.
i have another room mate. this bitch fucking drives me nuts. we both want her out....after we pay this next months rent. haha.
so back to this guy i cant have. i want him so bad....sigh....he's a really good guy....sometimes, but it just makes me want him all the more. my guys friends always tell me, "Amberly, any guy that wouldnt want you has got to be fucking retarded. If you ever have problems getting a guy he has to be gay or something."
I know he's not gay, because i fuck him...and i know he's not retarded, because i dont like retards(haha, just kidding) but really he's not a ree-ree. I just dont know what to do. help.
enough about that! how was everyone's christmas? mine was ok. im still waiting for that bomb ass christmas dinner i havent got yet. i have about $300 dollars total in gift cards. I dont even know where to start. its pretty chaotic.
alright i feel kinda lame talking about myself so imma end this now. happy holidays!
i see a lot of people are no longer active on this here website. what the fuck? maybe its like one of my unactive spells and wont last long? hmmm
well, well... i havent been on here or written anything of importance in a long time.
well i'm in salem, oregon right now visiting family. old people go to bed way too early.
i found my car! it was in some motherfuckers drive way. did the cops do anything about it? fuck no they didnt. if you live in north idaho, go steal a car because you wont get in trouble for it. fucking pigs.
my sex life totally fucking sucks. i never get laid anymore but i dont feel like having casual sex because im sick of it. so i just fuck this one guy and our scheduals dont work out together that often.
im looking for a man but i know living in coeur d' alene im sure as fuck not going to find one i want. well i have but i cant have him. i want to get married soon and i want to have a kid within the next 2 years or so...but once i get married im not getting a divorce for anything so he's gotta be good. i guarantee its not going to fucking happen because lord fucking knows i can't have what i want.
ive leared to be very negative and stuff and expect the worse. im almost 100% right about it so im never too dissapointed. then when something good does happen im fucking stoked.
i need to get some new pictures up. my hair is different and my ears are gauged bigger than in any of the pics.
im finally going to finish high school. ugh. i really fucking hate that shit. its fucking stupid. oh well. i dont really want to be working at king pizza the rest of my fucking life.
i have another room mate. this bitch fucking drives me nuts. we both want her out....after we pay this next months rent. haha.
so back to this guy i cant have. i want him so bad....sigh....he's a really good guy....sometimes, but it just makes me want him all the more. my guys friends always tell me, "Amberly, any guy that wouldnt want you has got to be fucking retarded. If you ever have problems getting a guy he has to be gay or something."
I know he's not gay, because i fuck him...and i know he's not retarded, because i dont like retards(haha, just kidding) but really he's not a ree-ree. I just dont know what to do. help.
enough about that! how was everyone's christmas? mine was ok. im still waiting for that bomb ass christmas dinner i havent got yet. i have about $300 dollars total in gift cards. I dont even know where to start. its pretty chaotic.
alright i feel kinda lame talking about myself so imma end this now. happy holidays!
[Edited on Dec 29, 2005 11:24PM]
as for the dude - does he just not want you or what? do you know this or are you assuming?