amaye

Well I've dropped off the site for a bit (well, kind if. Okay, not really).

Anyway, my best friend's baby's daddy overdosed last night on a cocktail of crack, heroin, methadone and xanax. I spent all last night with her in the hospital. His family has written him off, she's his only next of kin...and now the questions remains- they're asking whether or not to take him off life support.

I have grown apart from him, (actually, I ceased being his friend about two years ago) and we all thought my friend was an idiot for putting up with his antics, but she "loves" him. And he has successfully completed three stinits in rehab. Whatever. But I love her and seeing her this upset and having to make a decision like that is killing me. I feel no pain for him, just kind of a "oh, well we knew this was coming. This or prison." This is the 3rd time he's been in the ICU post-rehab for OD's, just none were this bad.

And the daughter, The three year old. God damn him.

What do you say to your best friend when she wants to know if she should take the father of her child off life support? Especially when the answer is a resounding "YES?!"

I don't understand and I don't know what to do or say, and I am tired of looking at these hopsital waiting room walls. If I'm complaining, I can't even beging to imagine how she feels.

I think that people who do copious amounts of narcotics as a parent should have to spend their "eternity" watching a neverending rerun of the pain, confusion and havoc they created while on this planet.

/end rant.

Hope ya'll are doing fine.