I did my shoot, it was great...hurry up and wait I guess is what happens now. darntootin is an awesome photographer--and person. And hilarious, too...you are!
Anyway, shooting like that for the first time in a few years made me realize how self-conscious I am, really with no good reason. I understand the point of this site is to embrace what may not be considered "conventional" beauty, and I love it for that, but it just sucks that society really does cram these unrealistic images down your throat that can cause self doubt and a desire to change or dislike something about yourself that is perfectly fine.
The sad part about it is you cannot get away from it, even if you try- it stares at you from magazines on grocery store mag racks while you're waiting to check out, billboards while you're driving, it's fucking everywhere. I know I sound like a cliche and this is constantly talked about, but I've struggled with eating disorders and know so many girls who have done the same. It just shouldn't be like that...I should NOT know a handful of girls who have made themselves sick trying to be so thin. One almost died. How ridiculous is that? Near death to become that image of perfection.
Add to that seeing family on Mother's day who are horrified with tattoos- well, on me anyway. Apparently they are reserved for criminals and people in the service. Oh, and white trash, whatever that means. This just pissed me off more than anything. It's so hard to try and explain to someone that tattoos, piercings, whatever are de riguer with our generation, and it's frustrating to have someone so dismissive and disgusted about something you've done to yourself aesthetically, espeically something (sorry, here comes another cliche) that means a lot to you. More self doubt, please? Thanks.
We are just not where society needs to be. Priorities are all fucked up on every level, from your next door neighbor all the way to the White House. People care too much about the wrong things. The right things (yes, "right" is subjective) are being swept under the rug. Corruption is everywhere, in all these little shapes and sizes. Rampant.
Anyhoo, I am going to stop, otherwise this is going to turn too pedantic and esoteric for most, and even I wouldn't want to read my ramblings.
Despite all the shit I just spewed, I am a very happy girl.
Anyway, shooting like that for the first time in a few years made me realize how self-conscious I am, really with no good reason. I understand the point of this site is to embrace what may not be considered "conventional" beauty, and I love it for that, but it just sucks that society really does cram these unrealistic images down your throat that can cause self doubt and a desire to change or dislike something about yourself that is perfectly fine.
The sad part about it is you cannot get away from it, even if you try- it stares at you from magazines on grocery store mag racks while you're waiting to check out, billboards while you're driving, it's fucking everywhere. I know I sound like a cliche and this is constantly talked about, but I've struggled with eating disorders and know so many girls who have done the same. It just shouldn't be like that...I should NOT know a handful of girls who have made themselves sick trying to be so thin. One almost died. How ridiculous is that? Near death to become that image of perfection.
Add to that seeing family on Mother's day who are horrified with tattoos- well, on me anyway. Apparently they are reserved for criminals and people in the service. Oh, and white trash, whatever that means. This just pissed me off more than anything. It's so hard to try and explain to someone that tattoos, piercings, whatever are de riguer with our generation, and it's frustrating to have someone so dismissive and disgusted about something you've done to yourself aesthetically, espeically something (sorry, here comes another cliche) that means a lot to you. More self doubt, please? Thanks.
We are just not where society needs to be. Priorities are all fucked up on every level, from your next door neighbor all the way to the White House. People care too much about the wrong things. The right things (yes, "right" is subjective) are being swept under the rug. Corruption is everywhere, in all these little shapes and sizes. Rampant.
Anyhoo, I am going to stop, otherwise this is going to turn too pedantic and esoteric for most, and even I wouldn't want to read my ramblings.
Despite all the shit I just spewed, I am a very happy girl.
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dcmarsh:
dcmarsh:
You know I'd win. Where's mah bat?
