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Friday Jul 28, 2006

Jul 28, 2006
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On the brink of an anxiety attack all morning.
I can't get back to sleep.
The thought of trying to eat something turns my stomach.
My stairs are an obstacle more than ever.
I feel light headed and dizzy.



I want out of this place.

Music is not giving me the solace I yern for today.
Nothing is.



I woke up and my room smelled like vomit. Or like something had died while I "slept".
(The defanition of sleep being slipping into an indescribable state for 45 minutes to an hour, then waking suddenly feeling as though my brain was swelling and moments away from bursting and gushing from my from ears.)



Just give me a porch to sit on with a stiff drink in my hand
circa_1983:
Man I've been like that before surreal I used to get anxiety attacks all the time.

I used to get them at nite. A certain dream would trigger them. I felt like my entire body was gonna explode and I was gonna rip from the inside out. skull

Once I got it I'd be up all nite. frown

I hope you feel better. My car is a 93 Honda Prelude. I haven't junked it yet its just sitting there. biggrin

Yea its overheating on me. My radiator fan broke so now I can't drive it around frown
Jul 28, 2006
onewithall:
i've got a twisted sleep issue as well, i absolutely luv my dreams, their like seperate realities for me, but it's the nights when i can't sleep, like last night, when the voices annoy and scare the hell out of me, the twist is...i'm the creator of the voices frown surreal

by the way......this is very very wicked love
Jul 31, 2006

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