amandaz

Maybe I am a selfish bitch.
Guess what... Don't care.

Too many years have gone by living my life,sticking it out in situations I was really unhappy with, for the sake of making others happy.

Taking into consideration the choices I've made in the last few weeks, I can't remeber when I have ever felt better.
And most of it is due to him:

He's been much more to me than I let myself believe for a long time.

this is exciting.
He takes me on adventures through cemetaries, to movies played in abandoned parking lots on the backs of buildings painted over white.He snuggles with me, and makes me feel like the most beautiful thing alive.
I deserve this.
And he deserves this: Somoene who won't fuck him over. Someone who is loyal and would defend him to the death.
I am that.