It's been a time that I've been thinking about losing weight and getting fitter. That's because I used to be thinner than I'm now and lately I've had some photoshoots and I felt a little ashamed of my body and I didn't like it. It's just that I like me when I'm thin and now I'm not, and I see myself too much voluptuos when before I wasn't. I even see myself overweight but people tell me that I'm exaggerating.
Some people tell me not to do it because they say that I'm fine, and I really notice that they are lying to me, because, you know, I know what I see in the mirror, and I know it's true what I see, it's my body and I live with it.
It sounds like someone obsessed but I'm having a lot of anxiety, I cry and I have insomnia, largely because of this issue. So that's why I decided this, to feel better with me and more confortable with myself.
Tomorrow I'll start and well I hope it'll work and be more comfortable for photoshoots. Thanks to read this "depressive" blog but I need to spit it out, sorry.
Love you <3
