amalie

..feel a bit down.

Got so much on my mind. Still getting upset about my friend and her accident, she's so strong but has just had her fake leg taken away from her and is back in the wheelchair makes me feel down cause I know she's unhappy like that...

then I had my cousin attempt suicide last week... I've spoken to her since now and she's just about ok I think, but it doesn't stop me worrying like fuck about her state of mind and if she might do it again. Doesn't help that she's all the way in france and I can't see her I love having a double nationality but I really hate my family being divided in two.

...then I've had trouble with some of my friends... been accused of things that aren't true so that someone can cover up their actions... which is so selfish. It's really hurt me and I feel like it might affect people's trust in me although I've done nothing wrong.

then yesterday I broke up with my boyfriend because the long distance isn't working and I just don't have the time for a relationship like that. Feel gutted but there's nothing I could really do. Everything always fights against me...

and to top it all off i've got a workload which is never ending and so intense that iI'm getting anxiety and losing sleep over it. I've been out once since new years eve and I just feel pretty lonely and boring since I hardly get to see anyone anymore and am stuck in doing work.

Don't suppose someone fancies making me happy do they?