EDIT: 6pm appointment with emergency dentist assuming my insurance clears. One more favor to ask, please cross your fingers and toes and eyes that my insurance will clear and surgery (when it happens) goes safely. Two main options right now are surgery right away OR another script for pain killers until I can have surgery. Love you guys!
EDIT #2: Insurance has officially been verified. I've made like 5 phone calls today to make sure everything works. If you know how bad my anxiety is when it comes to making phone calls, you'd know that its a HUGE deal. I'm one step closer.
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Morning update for y'all because HOPEFULLY I will be having surgery this afternoon or evening.
Bad, Whiney, Complainy Stuff:
SPOILERS! (Click to view)
Things are basically the same. Vicodin kinda helps but the pain still comes in waves that sneak through that barrier and I end up in tears for 5-10 minutes. One of the worst parts is that when the "bad waves" come, it gets so bad that my entire right side of my face hurts. I'm doing my best not to just take one after another and sleep through the numbness. I really don't want the docs to think I'm abusing them but jesus and the donkey motherfucker does this hurt.
The thought of a root canal and/or tooth extraction scares me. It really does. But then that pain hits and I just want to be at the dentist, in that chair, letting them drill away. The sooner it happens, the sooner I'll be back to normal. That's all I want. I don't want to be in pain anymore.
Thanks to schedule issues, insurance, and no cell phone....I may not be able to have surgery until tomorrow. I am considering going to the dentist alone for the exam and xray today HOPING they will give me a script for a bit more pain medication until I can have surgery. I have 3 left of 15. In 40 hours I've used 12. The script says take 1 or 2 every 6 hours, but I've basically taken 1 every 3 hours. I will wait to have surgery until my dad can drive me and take care of me, but good Lord in Heaven please let them give me another script to get through this day.
I just don't understand why this is happening to me. After a week of binge drinking, hurting myself while blacked out drunk, fighting with Reekie, losing her, scaring my dog, and then deciding to STOP drinking, eat healthy, get a bit of exercise, and be more positive to improve my life and grow up..... WHY NOW?! I was getting everything ready to start applying for jobs and only buying healthy food and making time to eat well. I just don't understand. I'm sure, in the end, I will see the reason. There has to be a reason. Good things WILL come of this. But until I know, its going to torture me.
GOOD THINGS!
I added a fuck ton of jerseys to my wishlist. Ones that friends have suggested I own even though I'm not a huge fan of the team and ones I really want to own. 
I also found some cute shoes I'd like to buy some day.
A special, secret friend sent me some money to help me get a new cell phone battery sooner. I cried. I'm so so so thankful. Not having a cell phone is one of the things halting surgery/exams. It helps me afford Bryzly's food as well. I was so worried that after having paid for my meds out of pocket (aka, without insurance) I was afraid I'd have to ration her food. I just don't want these horrible days to roll over into something that puts her in a crappy position. This friend really helped me in a time of need. As if that isn't wonderful enough, they did it because I needed help and not just because I was on my old camming account struggling for a couple bucks here and there. I'm still in shock.
5 days until new Doctor Who
6 days until Easter 
I have amazing friends. I've been so thankful for all of you here and on twitter who have wished me well or just simply talked to me to keep me distracted from the pain. While sometimes I feel alone when the pain gets bad and all I can do is lay here and cry, I am so frequently reminded that I am loved and cared for. You're all so wonderful to me. 
Another old jersey picture for now
I'll blog again when new information comes my way. I can't wait to write a blog that is ONLY happy things. Soon, my friends. Like you keep reminding me, soon.
All I need right now is more pain meds to help with the patience.
xoxox Aly
Your Bruins beat my Leafs tonite!!