altamedic

i think im falling for someone. falling fast and hard. and it scares me. She is a wonderful woman who everytime im lucky to talk to makes my life feel great and wonderful. I find myself thinkng about her alot. i miss her big time when i am not talking with her. I think of the time that we may finally meet face to face. but im scared. im scared she will see me, and see all my huge flaws, im afraid that i will say something, or do something that will totally screw this up. i dont know if i should come out of my shell, or stay here where its safe. Its been awhile since i have had my true feelings hurt or even used the damn things. i want to show her the world, and go thru life together, learning about her. but im scared.


maybe its time to grow the hell up, and quit being so scared..

or maybe just try to be a good friend to her and hope for the best.

but

im scared


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