Okie here we go. Trying to empty this mind out of stuff so its nice and clean inside. Hehehe if you have any comments or want to discuss anything i have here let me know! im always looking for comments and such.
i am spoilering it incase you dont want to acutally read it lol
i am spoilering it incase you dont want to acutally read it lol
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1. well since this happened this morning during my walk i might as well start with it: Pregnant Teens
you know i have a confesion to make here. i love younger women. Now that does not mean i love people under the age of 19!!!!! but i have found in my experience i seem to be able to click better with the younger crowd than my own age or older. that being said, if i did not like the younger ladies i would not be here in SG! well back to the topic of pregnant teens, during my walk today i must have seen at least 4 young ladies (and by young im talking between 14 and 17 years of age) who were pregnant. it got me to look around at other people and see thier reaction to this. I was very surprised when alot of the looks i noticed where ones of disgust (i know this look very well since it seems i get this look thrown at me in the real world here when asking a lady out on a date! but more on that later), anger ( this one puzzles me a bit), quite a few looks of pity, and only a few of acceptance. Now i dont know maybe im open minded, or just plain wierd but even though i dont think young women should be getting pregnant at that age, i just dont understand the where the anger and disgust is coming from. i mean lets be reasonable here. Young teens (yes both male and female) are out there having sex. i actually had a talk with a close friend of mine and she informed me about the fact that one of her daughters friend (who is only 15) is pregnant. She discussed with me how upsetting it was and how this friend was a slut! we debated over this for quite awhile and i took the side that she was not a slut (or so i beleive) and that kids that age do experiment and that i think as adults we have to accept that fact, and no matter how much we lecture and forbid our kids from doing it, they will. its a simple fact. now with that being said, i think we should educate our kids more ( i think our school system up here in canada is doing a ok job, they could be doing better but ok for now) and parents should talk to the kids more about it at a earlier age (say around 10 or 11 when thier hormons are really starting to appear for the first time). Now back to my friend, i was shocked at how harsh she was about how young girls who do experiment for the first time are automatically sluts in her opinion. like i said earlier we discussed this for a long time and i dont think i convinced her of opening her mind more. now granted she has one hell of a iron hand in raising her daughters ((who i love to death! great kids)) but i think she may be over protective on them and i can see problems coming up in the future. oh well you cant win them all.
2. LIFE
This one is more tricky. i see from alot of blogs and such how happy people are now after they have gone thur a rough time. i also see how upset some are becoming or are still. i really dont know how my life is going. am i where i want to be right now? no. can i change to make it better? more than likey. will i change right now to make my life better? no. why? cause im so damn scared of change that i just cannot do it. i mean look, in april i moved to red deer alberta to start a new life. boy did that crash hard on me. i could not get a steady job that i would enjoy and even though i loved being in the city, i was not that happy. and the fact i was living with my brother and his gf did not sit too well with me either due to the fact i was reminded everyday on how alone i was. then i get offered a great job with a new company in grande prairie. here i thought great! i can go up and work my 3 weeks on and be back in red deer and live here for the week off. but a condition i had on this employment was i was to move back to grande prairie. no dont get me wrong gp is a good city to live in. its just that i lived here for 20+ years and have ALOT of bad memories and experiences here. and i mean alot. i just did not reallly want to come here, but like a good little boy i packed up and moved back. now i have been sitting and waiting to go to work here for the last 4 weeks and have only been out to work for 3 days. its driving me nuts. i want to get ahead in life but i need the money to do that and to get the money i need to work. i signed a contract stating that i would not get employment anywhere else while employed with this company. the good thing about sitting around is im getting a bunch of safety courses and manager courses done that ill need when i become a supervisor and if i want to cross train over to being a H2S Safety Supervisor in the patch. i guess ill do what i always do. keep going this way and hope that things pick up. i know they will once the patch picks up which should be the begining of winter. i just hope i can survive till then.
3. Friends
This one is a big one for me. its big enough that i have to put it into 2 sub catagories:
Online:
this one is concerning people i know here in SG, Everquest, Everquest 2 and other online chat rooms and games i play. these friendships i have with you all are very very speical to me. i know i get a great kick out of reading your blogs and getting comments and mails from you all. i know i sure as hell smile alot more when online and that there is a problem. the problem is that i am finding myself wanting to be online more and more because of the good feelings i get from everyone. i do classify myself as antisocial except when it comes to being online because i can be myself here and no one judges me by my looks or wieght or what ever. i just want to say thank you all for being friends and thas coming from the bottom of my heart and soul. Also i have been toying with the idea of taking a summer off in the next few years and visiting my friends. like in the states i would rent a rv and travel and make a plan to visit everyone. then maybe the next year i would visit a country or 2 and visit that way so that i can meet and thank everyone in person. who knows maybe it will happen!
Real Life
this one is very big. i could prob count on one hand the friends i have. like i said earlier, im not very sociable and with all the crap i took in jr high and high school, im just not good around people. enough said about this. it hurts too much
1. well since this happened this morning during my walk i might as well start with it: Pregnant Teens
you know i have a confesion to make here. i love younger women. Now that does not mean i love people under the age of 19!!!!! but i have found in my experience i seem to be able to click better with the younger crowd than my own age or older. that being said, if i did not like the younger ladies i would not be here in SG! well back to the topic of pregnant teens, during my walk today i must have seen at least 4 young ladies (and by young im talking between 14 and 17 years of age) who were pregnant. it got me to look around at other people and see thier reaction to this. I was very surprised when alot of the looks i noticed where ones of disgust (i know this look very well since it seems i get this look thrown at me in the real world here when asking a lady out on a date! but more on that later), anger ( this one puzzles me a bit), quite a few looks of pity, and only a few of acceptance. Now i dont know maybe im open minded, or just plain wierd but even though i dont think young women should be getting pregnant at that age, i just dont understand the where the anger and disgust is coming from. i mean lets be reasonable here. Young teens (yes both male and female) are out there having sex. i actually had a talk with a close friend of mine and she informed me about the fact that one of her daughters friend (who is only 15) is pregnant. She discussed with me how upsetting it was and how this friend was a slut! we debated over this for quite awhile and i took the side that she was not a slut (or so i beleive) and that kids that age do experiment and that i think as adults we have to accept that fact, and no matter how much we lecture and forbid our kids from doing it, they will. its a simple fact. now with that being said, i think we should educate our kids more ( i think our school system up here in canada is doing a ok job, they could be doing better but ok for now) and parents should talk to the kids more about it at a earlier age (say around 10 or 11 when thier hormons are really starting to appear for the first time). Now back to my friend, i was shocked at how harsh she was about how young girls who do experiment for the first time are automatically sluts in her opinion. like i said earlier we discussed this for a long time and i dont think i convinced her of opening her mind more. now granted she has one hell of a iron hand in raising her daughters ((who i love to death! great kids)) but i think she may be over protective on them and i can see problems coming up in the future. oh well you cant win them all.
2. LIFE
This one is more tricky. i see from alot of blogs and such how happy people are now after they have gone thur a rough time. i also see how upset some are becoming or are still. i really dont know how my life is going. am i where i want to be right now? no. can i change to make it better? more than likey. will i change right now to make my life better? no. why? cause im so damn scared of change that i just cannot do it. i mean look, in april i moved to red deer alberta to start a new life. boy did that crash hard on me. i could not get a steady job that i would enjoy and even though i loved being in the city, i was not that happy. and the fact i was living with my brother and his gf did not sit too well with me either due to the fact i was reminded everyday on how alone i was. then i get offered a great job with a new company in grande prairie. here i thought great! i can go up and work my 3 weeks on and be back in red deer and live here for the week off. but a condition i had on this employment was i was to move back to grande prairie. no dont get me wrong gp is a good city to live in. its just that i lived here for 20+ years and have ALOT of bad memories and experiences here. and i mean alot. i just did not reallly want to come here, but like a good little boy i packed up and moved back. now i have been sitting and waiting to go to work here for the last 4 weeks and have only been out to work for 3 days. its driving me nuts. i want to get ahead in life but i need the money to do that and to get the money i need to work. i signed a contract stating that i would not get employment anywhere else while employed with this company. the good thing about sitting around is im getting a bunch of safety courses and manager courses done that ill need when i become a supervisor and if i want to cross train over to being a H2S Safety Supervisor in the patch. i guess ill do what i always do. keep going this way and hope that things pick up. i know they will once the patch picks up which should be the begining of winter. i just hope i can survive till then.
3. Friends
This one is a big one for me. its big enough that i have to put it into 2 sub catagories:
Online:
this one is concerning people i know here in SG, Everquest, Everquest 2 and other online chat rooms and games i play. these friendships i have with you all are very very speical to me. i know i get a great kick out of reading your blogs and getting comments and mails from you all. i know i sure as hell smile alot more when online and that there is a problem. the problem is that i am finding myself wanting to be online more and more because of the good feelings i get from everyone. i do classify myself as antisocial except when it comes to being online because i can be myself here and no one judges me by my looks or wieght or what ever. i just want to say thank you all for being friends and thas coming from the bottom of my heart and soul. Also i have been toying with the idea of taking a summer off in the next few years and visiting my friends. like in the states i would rent a rv and travel and make a plan to visit everyone. then maybe the next year i would visit a country or 2 and visit that way so that i can meet and thank everyone in person. who knows maybe it will happen!
Real Life
this one is very big. i could prob count on one hand the friends i have. like i said earlier, im not very sociable and with all the crap i took in jr high and high school, im just not good around people. enough said about this. it hurts too much
well thats about it for this blog. ill try to get off my ass and take some pics to put up for next time. and maybe ill do a video blog to say hi to everyone. take care everyone
lots of love
AltaTeddyBear 
VIEW 8 of 8 COMMENTS
pregnant teens I'm sorry i feel really bad for saying this but i have a phobia of pregnant women it really distresses me I don't know if it's cos i know i'll never be a mum I'm not sure but yeah i'm not as horrible as i sound i don't want to feel like that I totally agree with what your saying I don't think for a minute pregnant teens are sluts or anything like that in fact i could go into a very deep conversation here but i don't want tofill up your page This is a subject very close to my heart I just don't think we should be judging anybody
life I'm not sure this one confuses me totally I'm not sure What's it all about?
Friends Online I totally agree with what your saying here hun I have never really been able to make friends in real life but the people i have met here are absoloutley amazing ....and that includes you I can say what i want when i'm online and just be me fat, ugly everything no one ever judges me Their always kind I feel truly blessed to have met the people i have they have honestley changed my life It is so good to feel accepted
Real life Forget it i'm not even gonna let it upset me anymore
Come back to PSW hun I've got a new set on sunday
LOTS OF LOVE AND HUGS
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