god what acrappy blog that last one was. okie this is hopefully will be better. sorry about that last one honestly...i will not post like that again....i hope everyone had a good weekend. sorry if this blog is all over the place but im just trying to empty my head out here and trying very hard to stay sane.
Stress has taken over my life. and im the only one to blame, because im the one that has allowed it to do that. a few things im stressed about
1. work - yes i got a part time job Dj'ing weddings and such and i am so looking forward to it.i start this weekend coming up soloing ((not training)) and im a bit nervous but im going to have a hell of a time!
2. money - the lack of money. i went and pawned one of my computers and only got 150.00 for it. totally sucks. i might even have togo and pawn this one. i hope not but i might have to. god this sucks
3. rent - this goes back to money or lack of. enuff said
4. social life - well i have none. i just cant seem to make friends. damn life sucks.
i sat here last night crying. i mean not just a few tears but all out, rivers falling from my eyes, bawling. i hoped it would help me feel better....i was wrong. i feel totally enclosed in right now. i mean like. im in a small room and the walls are closing in on me all the time, i cant breath or anything. god this sucks. i hate this feeling totally.
on the better side of life, my sister is preggy!!!! im so excited for her. she seems pretty happy about it so we will have a new addition to the family...wicked!!!
the brother and i have made amends for now, or at least till the next blow out...god i hope thats not for awhile
well im outta here for a bit...cheers to you all!!!! and have a kick ass week!
hugs
Stress has taken over my life. and im the only one to blame, because im the one that has allowed it to do that. a few things im stressed about
1. work - yes i got a part time job Dj'ing weddings and such and i am so looking forward to it.i start this weekend coming up soloing ((not training)) and im a bit nervous but im going to have a hell of a time!
2. money - the lack of money. i went and pawned one of my computers and only got 150.00 for it. totally sucks. i might even have togo and pawn this one. i hope not but i might have to. god this sucks
3. rent - this goes back to money or lack of. enuff said
4. social life - well i have none. i just cant seem to make friends. damn life sucks.
i sat here last night crying. i mean not just a few tears but all out, rivers falling from my eyes, bawling. i hoped it would help me feel better....i was wrong. i feel totally enclosed in right now. i mean like. im in a small room and the walls are closing in on me all the time, i cant breath or anything. god this sucks. i hate this feeling totally.
on the better side of life, my sister is preggy!!!! im so excited for her. she seems pretty happy about it so we will have a new addition to the family...wicked!!!
the brother and i have made amends for now, or at least till the next blow out...god i hope thats not for awhile
well im outta here for a bit...cheers to you all!!!! and have a kick ass week!
hugs
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And trust me it is good to cry. I'm in almost the same situation as you. I have no friends, im stuck in a universtiy i hate, there seems to be nobody who wants to take SG sets for me and being a student, i'm so skint i hardly know where my next meal is coming from. Oh yeah and i dont have a job.
Try to focus on something in you life you can control. Like right now, my grades are quite stunning. I'm passing everything.
hope you feel better soon sweetie. And i love being an auntie so start getting excited bout being an uncle