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High Level, Alberta

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Tuesday Jan 23, 2007

Jan 23, 2007
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Life. i think sometimes we forget how precious life really is. I mean how many people sit and acutally think about how lucky we are to be alive. I am writing this cause someone i knew died today. He took his own life. I served with him in the Canadian Armed Forces. Did the same tours together, were posted at the same posts and same bases. You know its kinda fucked how one person can take a totally diffrent route than another after being thru the same crap together. Take my friend. The demons we both have been living with for over what? 10 years now finally got to him. I think he took the fucking easy way out. No i dont. Man i just dont know. All i know is i take it every day, one day at a time. i have to or i might "lose" it myself. I can honestly say there have been several times when the end of a colt .45 looked real good.

But i cant do it. man lets face it im scared shitless of death. Ive seen it so many times and such that i cant help but wonder. if you die, do you "go into the light" or if your bad do you "go into the darkness" where your tormented for eternity? or is it like a light switch, when you die its like someone turning off the lights. its just done. Or maybe we are recycled and are reborn once again to walk this planet. Hmmm food for thought i guess.

I dont know what else to say. Im so glad to see such kick ass sets in PSW!!!! damn you women rock! and i realized something tonight too. As i was looking over Omega668 her site and blog and such, i had to wonder, how can i find such a beautiful and wonderful lady that i could call my own? Damn i wish there was like a store one could go to and get a girlfriend. Well i guess some people are just shit out of luck.

i miss talking with alot of my older friends here, Avidity, Saveme,Pollythunder just to name a few. well maybe ill get off my ass soon and just send them emails sayin hi.

thanks for taking the time to read this post. i appreicate it greatly.

oh question for you all? do i really look okie dressed like this? i like it but i dont know if its too "overboard" and funny looking for a fat guy like me to dress this way... thanks again all




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pollythundercat:
Aw, thank u sugar! Glad i got to talk to u a lil last night, Im so sorry about ur friend, but at the same time im happy to see u wouldnt do that to urself. Ur a cool guy, alta.....smile
The pics dont work frown

Take care, hun!
xoxoxox
Jan 24, 2007
motherchaos:
Hey smile Ran across you in PSW and read your blog. You have my utmost sympathy regarding your friend. Being a former firefighter/medic who also lost a friend that way after one bad call too many, I can understand some of what you are going through. I hope a mental ((((Hug)))) helps a bit.
As for the non working pics... Oh well, but the ones up on your main pic with the cool hat are neat wink I am a sucker for a cute guy in a great hat!

Well from one colder place to another, keep warm wink
Jan 25, 2007

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