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Oh, yikes.

So I started things up with the ex just as my social life started happening again...uh oh. So I'm seeing other people, and I'm not willing to stop seeing other people, and he's not willing to see me if I'm seeing other people (even though we made it clear when things started that we weren't going for a relationship and I told him...
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argon:
I e-mailed my number to you...
gnunat:
yo homes, que pasa? how's being a truthful asshole going? i've found being an asshole sooner will give you more time to not worry about the same stupid shit ('this isn't going well, but i don't want to hurt him[her]') later. time for you and the rest of the world's possibilities.

and lonliness is a bitch.....but it's the only bitch that we have to live with.....that whole lack of social consciousness or cognition keeps us to ourselves....so don't let the inside be buried by others' perceptions/suppositions.

....not to be suggestive or anything smile
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So I got four of my five projected grades back...two A's and two B+s. Not quite sure how I fucking pulled it out, considering I put about 30% of myself into school all semester. I'm hoping my last grade is an A- instead of a B+ (the two possibilities, it's on the border). That would make me feel a little better about getting a fucking...
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gnunat:
bonjour from sioux shitty...
how goes the wintery extended weekend? haul any nice booty this year's present-swap? just returned from the festive adventure a la casa de mi madre in Illinois. i've gotta record this week, but i may be back for the new year debauchery. anything exciting afoot?
gnunat:
oh yeah, i probably stopped working right before Jason...in October of '02....man, both Brooke and Nick still there...wow. that place does suck ya in.....though, its workers are close-knit.
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So this must be the sickest I've ever been, though I've done more now than every before. I've never been so sick that I was delirious...and no, no hallucinations...just lucid dreams that I couldn't wake up from, so when I did wake up I couldn't tell what was real and what wasn't, what actually happened and what was just a dream. It was fucking terrible...I...
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vicedriver:
come hang out with me!!!
wink

congrats on the semester being over
a relief i'm sure

get better!!
smile kiss
gnunat:
yo...enjoying the temporary lapse in academic responsibility? and the general chillin'? sick december days aren't all that bad when spent resting the mind (or killing it away with friends).

gotta love anxious existential attacks.

might try to find something cool to do tomorrow....
i'll tag ya if i do.
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Oh my god.

I was just completely delerious and it scared the hell out of me.

I have got to start getting better.
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xhippykid:
I just came across your profile and thought we had some stuff in common. I'm a big jamband fan, not many on this site. Hit me up anytime....peace
gnunat:
delerious, eh? see any cool hallucinations? like papers coming alive? "No More paper cuts, FEmiNisM!!!! ahhh!!"
or maybe bagged people...
yay
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So I (finally) made it to the doctor today, if you can count Student Health as the doctor (the nurse walked out of the room while I was describing my symptoms, the doctor came in, exclaimed "Oh my!" when she looked in my ear and at my throat, and then wrote me a perscrption without running any tests. I certainly hope the antibiotics kills EVERYTHING...
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argon:
I really hope you feel better soon. being sick these last few weeks of the semester is total hell... that's pretty strange that the doctor didn't run any tests, but i guess if it's a virus they can't do anything for you anyway.

I would deffinately take sinence from your proffessor. To be on the safe side you could always change it a little but keep the core paper the same. that still saves a lot of work.

*slap on wrist for commenting on my journal* wink
gnunat:
wow....that was a very bad description of how to know which one I was....and late timing. i should have said look for the nose piercing and listen for a loud Pixies cover. you didn't miss much anyway. not one of my better performances. silly freezing days and minds.

the best part of finals is that most normal college students get sick in the two or three weeks surrounding them. so, did the paper thing work today? and have you started drinking the Naked juice yet, cuz you really should. vitamins Rock. the House yO! help heal yourself before going out this weekend of going-out weekends. have any plans in this crazy windy town before holidays move you? i'll be hangin' til sunday if you'd still like to chill.
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Sweet. I realized last night that I could turn the paper I was writing in for two classes. And then I had a bout of consciousness and freaked out about academic honesty (I know, I know, nerdy, but I'm GOING into the academy so ethics are important) and e-mailed my professor and asked if that was okay. I hope she says yes cause I really...
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argon:
i hope you can use one paper for both. that would be a huge relief im sure. technically i dont think you can, but you could probaby just change it a little to better suit the topic for each class. Im totally done on thursday, and im going to my parents house on saturday, so we could get together thursday night or friday. I hope you're having a super productive day!
argon:
I just noticed on the hookups page you added a new pic. crazy. I am really effectively avoiding my work at the moment, but i have assured myself i will get started on that soon.
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What to say but more of the same? School, work, sick, papers...one more week until sweet blessed relief. Sigh. To be able to sleep in, to sit around and watch TV all day, to read books and knit and smoke pot. To see my ladies and my best friend in the entire world. To go to shows and drink beer. Sigh...

On a side not,...
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4nik8:
I am not a knitter but I am familiar w/ the it. My mother knits like a crazy woman. I moved back for reasons that were out of my control. Not going to get too into it here .. but I too am proud of Iowa in a 'i think its great for raising kids and I grew up there' way but h8 it atm b/c the lack of debautchery n'stuff
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gnunat:
ah, that abjection seems to be technology's folly now (you ass, you). Yeah, that crazy Chris kicks ass (that was fun to repeat outloud). Get him to play Mario 2's music on his keyboard....funny shit. And I think he's still rockin' out on wednesdays at the yacht club.

yeah, well, remember to sleep every once and awhile.
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So I'm in the process of realizing why I've been so unmotivated this semester. As an artist (writer), I need to believe in the concepts of truth and beauty, essential good, self, soul. I need to believe that we are somehow all connected, that there is infinate meaning in the grease stains on the gas attendant's hand, or in the drunken bear's dance (the whole...
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vicedriver:
first of all
if you're going to philosophize
you *totally* need to do it
when i'm there
there is absolutely *nothing*
i love better
than a good existential chat

ok
maybe 69'ing
but that's it wink

it was awesome
hanging out with you
i think you're totally cool

and thus
here is my take
on your quandry
there is a higher power
we are all connected
but this higher power
whoever she/he/it is
really *wants* us
to make our own decisions
cut our own path through life
just because there is
a connecting spark in all of us
doesn't mean
that we still don't control our destinies
that's my belief anyway

ponder that
and let's chat about it sometime

take care....
gnunat:
yeah, bodies are all good, but i'm sure there is a possibility to escape the capitalistic abjection....but you must play the game to rise above; the often heartless game of money=power=women---er, been having weird remembrances of Scarface lately---hmmmmmmmmmmm.

i've been quite concerned with Social Security. No monEy for me frown gotta get outta this place. See that world we're invading.

so, yeah, that women was living by herself and most of her conversation consisted of her recently deceased friends.....and pain.....and crazy rollerblading children. hm. i'd probably be dead before then anyway. Yay

[Edited on Dec 08, 2004 2:43AM]
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Sick, sick, sick. Yuck. There's nothing worse than being sick, especially when you have to miss work...

Definitely procrastinating instead of working on my papers. Time to buckle down and do it...
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rayna:
Vicedriver mentioned how he hangs out with you, and that you are cool. so I thought I would say hello. hello. biggrin
argon:
I am desperately trying to distract myself from studying for the impending doom of my physical chem exam tomorrow. oh man these last 3 weeks of class suck ass. I hope you are feeling better and that your papers are coming along well.
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So I just had the best damn Thanksgiving of my life...good friends, good wine, very little sleep.

And now I have to face the reality of school again. Except that I don't want to. So I'm not, and my deadlines are creeping ever closer.

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argon:
I know how that goes. good luck with your finals next week.
gnunat:
another Iowacityite, eh? if you like silly acoustic sets and don't have to many finals on tuesday next week, i'll be rockin' on monday night at the Mill.

hmmmmm....this was a bit forward....

i'm not really that presumptuous in real life. just the desperate musician pouring through.

scratch in my journal if you'd like.