I always promised myself if my mum died before me, I would follow close behind. She was my everything. Then she was taken suddenly and I was on the verge of continuous tablet taking and vodkha. The sleeping pills became more rampant and I felt closer to my goal.....Then I met you. Things were intense, you gave me meaning to get up in the morning, breathe in and out...try again.
When we met you stopped me from killing myself..... and then you left as soon as you arrived, pleading to stay friends as you crawled back to your live in lover.
What you've left me with is a feeling of cowardess....I should have taken my life when I had the chance. I feel like I've cheated my mum, my self for not having the guts to go through with it.
When I get hurt, sick, sad, tired and fearful of my life I have no one to turn to. She was the only one to ever love me unconditionally and I thought for a fleeting moment you had taken her place and there could be light again within my life....
We done this dance now for almost 2 years and still you break my heart. You make me wish things were different and that I was loveable and yet you brush me off whenever you feel like to ensure you don't get too close...
When we met you stopped me from doing something stupid....
Almost every day I wish I'd never met you and these words would not have been written....
I miss her and the haze that is clouding me tonight makes me hope, wish and dream that tongith I sleep and my weary head never has to wake again.....
Life without love may not be worth living but at least its survival.....
there is no fight left.....and i wish to be free......
just another set of word left hangin lost of all importance and meaning........................
When we met you stopped me from killing myself..... and then you left as soon as you arrived, pleading to stay friends as you crawled back to your live in lover.
What you've left me with is a feeling of cowardess....I should have taken my life when I had the chance. I feel like I've cheated my mum, my self for not having the guts to go through with it.
When I get hurt, sick, sad, tired and fearful of my life I have no one to turn to. She was the only one to ever love me unconditionally and I thought for a fleeting moment you had taken her place and there could be light again within my life....
We done this dance now for almost 2 years and still you break my heart. You make me wish things were different and that I was loveable and yet you brush me off whenever you feel like to ensure you don't get too close...
When we met you stopped me from doing something stupid....
Almost every day I wish I'd never met you and these words would not have been written....
I miss her and the haze that is clouding me tonight makes me hope, wish and dream that tongith I sleep and my weary head never has to wake again.....
Life without love may not be worth living but at least its survival.....
there is no fight left.....and i wish to be free......
just another set of word left hangin lost of all importance and meaning........................