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So I've been thinking about this for quite a while now. Have you ever find yourself confused and lost and thinking to yourself "What in the world am I going to do with my life?" I have actually found myself doing that many times and I'm sure there are many of you guys out there who are like me but our reasons might not be the same.

I placed myself under this category "Jack of all trades" which is usually followed by "Master of none" has anyone ever considered why that is? Here is my take but I'll give you a hint, and not to brag here, I've been given the "honorary title" of ccpedia, that's wiki I'm my name :P cause I usually have answers for questions on general knowledge, science, history and what nots, I was called "the artist" cause I am the only one among my friends who appreciate all sorts of arts and there are is a small list of names too.

Once again, I'm not bragging but the thing is why the names? Cause I read up on them, I do research I take my time to admire the arts, cause I have too many interests. Using the phrase master of none to describe us, and not knowing why, I feel, is like an ignorant person saying that all Asians eat dogs and mean it. For some of us "Jacks" life is just too short to actually accomplish everything that we have ever wanted to do.

It is in this dog eat dog world that we know to achieve something, one must sacrifice something to attain another. It is this requirement that scares and confuses us as most of us just cannot stand the thought that we are to stop doing that we love. We are to choose something, a "profession" as well as decide whether or not if that is the "right" career that we want and whether if it is "practical" and I can tell you most of them are not. We end up usually with a job that we have partial or no interest in and I hate saying this and have the other choices labelled as "a hobby".

I hate this phrase "Why don't you do something practical?" and as much as I hate to admit, I have to... However, please know this, just because you don't see potential in my dreams don't try to fucking tear them down as you see fit and try to make me conform to what you think is "right" or towards society, keep your bloody ideals to yourself and if you can't think of anything nice to say than to voice your opinions on what you think is "right" then shut the fuck up!

Which makes me move on to the next part, forgive me if this offends you. But am I too young to plan ahead of myself? No my innocence isn't taken away it's just that my eyes are opened earlier to what is life. I have to find a way to dig out of this enormous pile of shit that rich cooperates have piled upon me. Controlling the world as they see fit, my plans for the future are being hindered just because the global economy decided to take a fall. I have been brought up in this country where you need at least 1 million and more to buy an apartment of 4 rooms, a few thousand to buy a car, and that the government is constantly raising taxes to pay off the debts that the ruling party has landing us in and treating its citizens like slaves to fund their own pockets. If things are not going to improve soon I am going to find another way out even if my shovel is dented ill use my hands.

I do think of having kids in fact, I want to pave a way not just for myself but for a family that I would love to have, my future wife and kids, a life for my parents, mortgage for a house and car, collage funds and plans for travel. Yes I have a future drawn up in my head. Like I said before my innocence isn't taken away just that my eyes are opened earlier than most of my peers. Trust me when I say that the future is in your hands cause if you do believe in fate and in palmistry and facial readings. The lines on your palms and your face actually do change according to the way that you live your life. Lastly, I love my country but not the government and how thing are being run. If things are not going to improve in the near future and if the ruling party isn't stepping down I am migrating from this shit hole! I have plans to do so already even if things improve or not... I am hell sure that I can make it, so here is to a better future!!

Lastly, blogs. One thing I love about this site is that people do not judge you for who you are but embrace you, only if you are negative towards others and to me a blog is like a window for me to see through the eyes of another person and to be able to look into another world or another country. But the thing that is getting to me is that there are a lot of blogs that are being ignored just because the girl isn't to your appeal or if it's just another guy. Most of us are here because it is such a safe haven for us and to be ourselves, a place for us to rant and pour out our feelings. If they to take the time to type them down and expose this vulnerable side of themselves, I think we should be able to find the time, according to your circumstances, to as least take the time to read the blogs no matter who they are and please do not skip them cause they are “too long”. And NO I am not talking bout my blogs cause I don't expect anyone would like to read them in the first place. However to those of you who do read, support and comment my blogs I would like to show you my gratitude and appreciation. ^^

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