Going to do a little bit more sharing and I'm off to bed. This may change your mind set of me so if you still want of have this idea of me in your head don't open the spoilers YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!! Mwuahahahaha! No seriously this is really bad shit right here =\
So most peeps think I am the happy person and stuff like that. In fact I don't really know what kind of person I am on the inside. Sometimes I just feel very lonely, no this is not cause of my problem of not having a sibling(mentioned in previous blog), I just find it hard to confide myself in others, I don't have anyone whom I can call a best friend at most a friend and that was it (cept for my first ex) but I realized that majority of people are extremely selfish, everything revolves around themselves and if you aren't similar to their personality they don't give a fuck about you.
I am extremely sick and tired of being labelled the nice guy or the guy to go to if you have a problem. Don't get me wrong I don't hate helping people but I hate being taken for granted! It is a bloody far cry for me since I was a kid, was trying to help others and to listen to their problems. But once they are ok then off the fuck they go and you are just another speck of dust which they just brush off their sleeves. When I need help or someone to talk to I get fucking shunned or peeps go like "stop feeling sorry for yourself" WHAT THE BLOODY FUCK!
I don't expect a lot but please can someone take the effort to at least try to understand me? Just by wanting to learn about what I like and my hobbies and I'll be really happy. I can't really find a best friend among my friends, cause I'm the weird one, always playing around, "He is crazy bout piercings and tattoos." "The shit he likes are so not inclined to our liking." "He is just some guy to have around to have fun with." Fuck! You don't see me judging them! They can be from all walks of life and I don't give a fuck! A friend is a friend.
Don't you go asking "Why not try to talk to them more, explain and really introduce yourself to them?" Don't u think I've tried? People just ignore me and push me out of conversations most of the time. I really fucking have no idea why! What the fuck am I doing wrong? I keep blaming myself that I'm too bubbly and I have to tone it down. Cause no one it taking me seriously. And when I'm serious I'm not the happy guy they know of... I seriously am so lost here...
End rant/;
Anyways I love this community you guys don't judge, we have the almost the same interest and everyone is so encouraging as well! For that I truly thankful and for the first time feel like I'm in a place where I belong. Thank you so much guys :)
So I've been to the gym again today and this time it's crazy work out for my arms. OMG I can't even raise them up without having to put in effort! I can't even use my phone properly without my arms shaking constantly like I'm on E. Lol anyways I'm just waiting for the soreness to set it and it'll be official! My limbs need a holiday lol. Anyways gonna show u what the gym is like. Ill show u my progress when I'm ready though cause I have this self confidence issue bout my body and plus I'm shy lol
Trust me when I say these were the most difficult photos that I have ever taken. Please don't hurt tomorrow arms...
Lastly before I go, I don't normally do this but there is this sweet heart in a major hiccup. @chrysis go read up on her blog she needs help big time! So please read her blog and give her some help or encouraging words cause she is really in a very low point in her life and if we can lend a helping hand then why not.
Sayonara you awesome peeps you!
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