almightymabel

i realized today that i am not worthy of my husband's love. for those who have never met him, he is the most wonderful person to ever grace the planet. for those who have, you know what i'm talking about. i feel like i'll never measure up or be able to provide him with as many joys as he provides me, to me he is simply a superior person. it pains me that i get so selfish and don't always realize that. i think back on the times i pick stupid fights and make him feel like a shitty husband, dog father, and person in general. or how little i actually contribute to the security and well being of our lives and marriage, but think i do and care so much more than he does. he would lie, steal, kill for me and i how do i repay that?

without him i would wither and die. literally. his absence would create a void in my heart that would swallow me whole. i know without a doubt he feels the same for me, but sometimes i think he'd be better off without me, that he would then be free to find someone to treat him the way he deserves.

i'm such a fuckin idiot.