Yesterday my boyfriend's mom died.
She was only 47.
I miss her already.
She was like a second mom to me.
I can't believe it. It just doesn't feel real. I don't want it to be real at all.
And now he is leaving florida. I have to lose him too.
I hate this so much.
Now he is leaving today and apparently I'm not allowed to be sad because it was his mom, not mine.
What the hell am I supposed to do.
I have no support from him or my parents.
Is it so bad to care for her when she wasn't my mom?
I'm so crazy with emotion that I have no idea what to feel.
She was only 47.
I miss her already.
She was like a second mom to me.
I can't believe it. It just doesn't feel real. I don't want it to be real at all.
And now he is leaving florida. I have to lose him too.
I hate this so much.
Now he is leaving today and apparently I'm not allowed to be sad because it was his mom, not mine.
What the hell am I supposed to do.
I have no support from him or my parents.
Is it so bad to care for her when she wasn't my mom?
I'm so crazy with emotion that I have no idea what to feel.
if you were close, then you have EVERY RIGHT to mourn. ignore those who say you don't.
and you two should be supporting each other! this is a loss for both of you (obviously) and not supporting each other is a good way to keep falling apart.
i heard you were coming up to visit your mom. please call me if you stop by in town, i would love to see you. i think it is good you are spending time with your mom. things that are tragic to us give us such an appreciation for what we've got. just remember to progress and keep moving and getting stronger.
remember, DO NOT feel guilty for grieving, it will only start a long cycle. do your grieving, let it process through you, like it does to every human being, and then move forward with new appreciations for what you still have and happy memories you will always have with you.
love you babe, stay strong.
resistance is futile,
-=b