allycat_13

Lost Soul May 11, 2006

This heart of mine is wrapped too
tight in thorns of self pity and mourn
Will it ever melt from the icy touch
of his kiss?
Warm embraces make me feel safe
from the hatred deep within myself

When he is gone the hate returns
I fall too easily and try hard to shut
out the emotion of wanting that need
of fulfillment of Love
Can a being such as I even be Loved?
Such a notion even pondered seems
insane to me
Surely I will grow old and alone
with no children to call my own
watching those I Love around me
ever so happy in Loves precious
ways as I sit and cry wishing he
never parted as the other ones did

Yes I know this is depressing as fuck and yes I am doing horrible.
I just don't understand men and why do I have to give into feelings so damn easily.