My mother told me that shes moving come Jan-Feb. To where is still unknown but she is determined to leave Orange County. Shes leaning towards moving back home to Missouri unless she finds a better place before the beginning of next year. She says I am the only thing keeping her here. That news was a bit heartbreaking. I dont like knowing I keep her in a place that makes her unhappy.
So I either go with her or make other plans.
I dont want to move to Missouri. I dont want to stay in Orange County. I actually cant stay in Orange County on my own its too expensive. I dont want roommates cause every friend I have is irresponsible or on a self-destructive path. I fear they will bring me down with them. No thank you. We discussed finding places we both agree on but I feel its time I go my own way.
My mother has been in a lawsuit with her work for the past few years. They go to court on Jan. 2, 2005. If she gets a big enough settlement she told me that she would pay off all of our bills so we could start new. Something Ive wanted to do for a long time. Ive been working at a job I hate for the past three years because Ive become accustomed to living a certain way and having credit cards, so if I quit I would go bankrupt for not paying the bills I acquired throughout the three years. Oh how I miss not having credit and being part time.
So from now till January of 2005 I have to figure out what the hell Im going to do and where Im going to go. Maybe Ill move to Missouri, maybe Ill stay in O.C. Maybe well find a place we both love and start over, together. I just cant leave knowing she will be all alone. Sometimes I feel that she is the child and I have to protect her from this harsh world we live in.
In other news I leave for Portland tomorrow. I love Portland oh so very much. I only wish I was 21 so I could enjoy Portland to the fullest. One day and that day would be June 24th, 2005. I cant wait.
PS. Money sux donkey balls. Have a great weekend kiddos.
Q's:
If you could live anywhere in the US, where would it be?
Would you rather be in a place you love with little money or a place you dont really care for with loads of spending cash?
Edited to add this interesting lil story:
Last Friday I saw my ex of 5 years for the first time since we broke up. We both drank over our limit. You could tell we were uncomfortable and nervous around each other. Natural right? Around 2am he decided he was going to drive home to Palmdale from RSM. I asked him not to since I know he has a habit of falling asleep at the wheel. He doesnt listen and proceeds to leave. The next morning I had a strange urge to call him for the first time in months. I though it was me being emotional about seeing him the night before and decided not to. Even thou I felt something was wrong. Turns out he fell asleep at the wheel and went over the center divider into on coming traffic and then crashed into a ditch. The car caught on fire and thats when he woke up burning. He has 2nd degree burns on his arms and hands and a cut/bump on his forehead. The truck is totaled but he didnt hit any other cars, thank god. Hes ok just bummed about his car and a lil sore from the burns. Strange to think I felt this happen. Im still glad I didnt call thou. Is that bad?
So I either go with her or make other plans.
I dont want to move to Missouri. I dont want to stay in Orange County. I actually cant stay in Orange County on my own its too expensive. I dont want roommates cause every friend I have is irresponsible or on a self-destructive path. I fear they will bring me down with them. No thank you. We discussed finding places we both agree on but I feel its time I go my own way.
My mother has been in a lawsuit with her work for the past few years. They go to court on Jan. 2, 2005. If she gets a big enough settlement she told me that she would pay off all of our bills so we could start new. Something Ive wanted to do for a long time. Ive been working at a job I hate for the past three years because Ive become accustomed to living a certain way and having credit cards, so if I quit I would go bankrupt for not paying the bills I acquired throughout the three years. Oh how I miss not having credit and being part time.
So from now till January of 2005 I have to figure out what the hell Im going to do and where Im going to go. Maybe Ill move to Missouri, maybe Ill stay in O.C. Maybe well find a place we both love and start over, together. I just cant leave knowing she will be all alone. Sometimes I feel that she is the child and I have to protect her from this harsh world we live in.
In other news I leave for Portland tomorrow. I love Portland oh so very much. I only wish I was 21 so I could enjoy Portland to the fullest. One day and that day would be June 24th, 2005. I cant wait.
PS. Money sux donkey balls. Have a great weekend kiddos.
Q's:
If you could live anywhere in the US, where would it be?
Would you rather be in a place you love with little money or a place you dont really care for with loads of spending cash?
Edited to add this interesting lil story:
Last Friday I saw my ex of 5 years for the first time since we broke up. We both drank over our limit. You could tell we were uncomfortable and nervous around each other. Natural right? Around 2am he decided he was going to drive home to Palmdale from RSM. I asked him not to since I know he has a habit of falling asleep at the wheel. He doesnt listen and proceeds to leave. The next morning I had a strange urge to call him for the first time in months. I though it was me being emotional about seeing him the night before and decided not to. Even thou I felt something was wrong. Turns out he fell asleep at the wheel and went over the center divider into on coming traffic and then crashed into a ditch. The car caught on fire and thats when he woke up burning. He has 2nd degree burns on his arms and hands and a cut/bump on his forehead. The truck is totaled but he didnt hit any other cars, thank god. Hes ok just bummed about his car and a lil sore from the burns. Strange to think I felt this happen. Im still glad I didnt call thou. Is that bad?
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That's a tough question, and one I've been asking myself for 6 months now. Lately I've been to Colorado, Ohio, Florida, and Portland, each with the idea in mind of "Could I move here?" Ohio is definitely out. That place is scary. Florida is out too, now that most of it has washed away. I like Colorado a lot, but not as much as I like Portland. If I were to move anywhere, I would (and I still very well might) choose Portland.
NYC has always been my home... on so many different levels, I'd find it really difficult to be anywhere else. Additionally, if i am to continue to do well in my career, i have to stay here or move to LA (which I would prefer not to do).
The money/location question is tough... It comes down to what makes you happier in the long run. Many people would love to live here in NYC but can't afford to do so... They give it a shot, end up loving the city, but hating it for making you want what you can't have. Maybe a little money in a place you love less can literally afford you more happiness and trips to places that would make you happy...?